R2P2D8-VLCD D6

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss 1.1
Current Weight 156.1
R2P2 Loss to Date 9.2
LIW R1P2 159.4
Under LIW 3.3
Food Tracker: P2 Chili, 1/2 Apple, 3 strawberries, Melba Toasts, Orange, Chicken with Romaine, Braggs Aminos
Exercise: 22 minute walk on treadmill 3.9ml/hr pace, 5 minutes on mini trampoline, 20 minutes on stationary bike 16ml.hr

Gosh, it has been a rough few days with my work.  I got yelled at twice yesterday by my project manager (not direct line) for something that she knew about and didn't do anything about, and that I had been following up on ever since I found out about it, and I've spent the last 12 hours of worktime trying to document everything to cover myself, speaking with my colleagues in Italy, and hating my worklife.  She is really over the top, I can't believe a project manager can get away with treating people like that.  Well, actually, I can.  And I normally would call her on that behavior, but for now, Im happy to have a paycheck in this economy, and I really want to redo my bathroom this summer, so I don't want to rock the boat.  Ugh! 

But the good news: I did not cheat, I did not drink, I did not self medicate with food as a result of this stress.  I so wanted some wine to relax yesterday afternoon, and even this morning!, but I just got myself a nice safe P2 cup of tea with my chocolate stevia, took a deep breath, and reminded myself that this will pass.

Yesterday after all the hubbabaloo (that just rolls off my fingers, fun to say in my head), I tried to go for a walk outside to get some sunshine and sanity, and it started to pour within two minutes.  So I picked my wet butt up and hightailed it to the treadmill in my basement.  Another good thing.  And tomorrow is Saturday, thank god!  It seems like I am doing ok with working out lightly while doing this round, which is great!

Wow, just typing this, I am so relieved that the work thing is over (and that I didnt tell off my PM like I wanted to).  Soon Italy (all the issues dealt with them) will be gone for the day, and anything outstanding (though I think I covered everything) will need to wait til Monday.  And so for lunch today, Im going to walk outside, enjoy the sunshine and some good tunes, even though I need to be back for a 1 pm meeting.

On another note, last night at my Reiki share, I had a nice time, released some stress, and though I didnt get out of there in time to go swimming last night, I was able to come home and enjoy Private Practice on my DVR.   So it was a good night.

Day 4 of 3rd 4 day win: PHDR
I so felt attack/lack yesterday....but was not tempted to run to the kitchen.  I felt like I was in this dead end project, where I am not respected, have no room for advancement, and while that is true for now, it will not always be the case.  I am grateful that the project I am on now allows me to work at home 3x's a week, and do not want to give that up at this point despite the crap I need to deal with.  I have other outlets that make me happy, support my health and spiritual being, and so I will let this be what it is right now.  And soon, I will start coaching clients again on the phone in the evenings, which I love to do, and which makes me feel like I have a purpose in  life.  Adding to that will be my Reiki practice (starting this weekend, Ill be doing distance healing) which will allow me to contribute to others' healing in addition to my own.