Thursday, October 28, 2010

RP2VLCD D27: +.2

Another gain (.2) and another really busy day.  Just ate two cookies so Im sure not going to see a loss tomorrow, but who knows the way this round has been so crazy.  I actually gained during a mini steak day yesterday (only since I didnt have time to eat until 4pm).  Current weight is 133.8.  See you tomorrow!  And wish me luck, today is the first injection with one of the previously stored syringes...

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

R3P2VLCD D26: +.2

So no loss, but no significant gain.  Hoping its a fluke since I had some diet soda yesterday (about 6 oz).  Dont have time to post more, but wishing all of you beauties great losses today!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

R3P2 VLCD D25: -.6

Current Weight 133.4
Daily Loss .6
Loading Weight VLCD D1: 145.9
Loss this round: 12.5
Total loss to date: 55.6

So Im down .6 from Sunday.  Power was back on when I got home from the office yesterday, but I normally weight myself in the morning, so I decided to wait until this morning for the big reveal.  Today Im feeling really sore.  I did a yoga class last night in addition to my weekend training, and then I was carrying a bag full with veggies and realized, Ow...my arms hurt!  Definitely been working those shoulders too much.  But its really nice to start seeing definition in my arms (though the rolly polly stuff underneath my arms is still there-not sure how to get rid of that!). 

I was originally planning on staying on protocol only until this Friday.  Today would be my last injection, and then my last 72 hours would be done on Friday.  That was until I started feeling really good on protocol after my cheat the weekend before last, and started moving my weight a lot more.  At this point, Im going to keep going until my bottle of med is gone, which is one or two more days, and then Im going to use a few of the prefilled syringes I froze after my last round, rather than waste the meds, and see if those are still good.  If so, Im just going to keep going until  I reach my goal of 125, or until I start to feel lousy, or until I found out that the needles are not still good.  So Im estimating max time on P2 this round to be 42 or 43 days.  Which would mean both my birthday (Nov 15) and Thanksgiving would be cheat days (originally I was just planning on cheating for my birthday, in moderation of course!).  I will need to do correction days for them...but at this point, when my goal is so close, I am ready for those. 

Keep me in your well wishes for meeting my goal.  Im so hopeful to make it... only 8.4 more pounds to go!!!!!

Monday, October 25, 2010

No weight today

Power out all morning, couldn't weight myself. Just about to head to bed... Yesterday scale said 134. Here's hoping for even lower tomorrow- 55lbs down and counting!


Kelly Scotti
Founder and Director, Flying Dragon Wellness
Www.flyingdragonwellness.com

Saturday, October 23, 2010

135!

Don't know how this is happening, but I got down to 134.9 today- somehow yesterday I lost 3.1 lbs! WTF? I'm loving it but wondering if it's a fluke and it'll be up again tomorrow. Here's to the scale being even lower tomorrow! See you Monday!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

R3P2D19: -2.2

Current Weight 138.2
Daily Loss 2.2 (?)
Loss this round: 7.7

Very strange bedfellows, its like my cheat this weekend has jump started my weight loss, and taken away my food cravings.  I still havent eaten anything today, and Im not even hungry, which is directly opposite my experience every day before the weekend.  So I guess limiting my 1st loading, and getting TOM the day of my first injection really threw a wrench into things, and now maybe Im back on track?  Who knows, I just hope this trend continues to go forward.  This is the lowest Ive been weight wise since 1998!  So cool!

Yesterday, my food consisted of chicken and asparagus, about three cups of tea with apple cider vinegar in it, and chicken and onions/baby bok choy in Braggs.  I had an apple, some strawberries in WD chocolate syrup, and my melba toasts.  So lower than 500 cals, and double chicken, and no issues.  Im going to try the double chicken again today to see if that keeps the loss going.  Its nice to see such a good release without having to do a steak day.

Happy losses today, everyone! 

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

R3P2VLCD D18: -2.2

Current Weight 140.4
Daily Loss 2.2 (modified steak day)
Total loss this round: 5.5

Some of the weight has come off, thats a good thing.  I did yoga and swimming last night despite my lack of motivation, thats a good thing too.  Today I feel awful: congested, cold, headachy, blah!  And its raining and cold out so I wont be running outside today, my plan before I knew the weather.  I need to make sure that I get some exercise in today so I can stay and coach my clients tonight without falling asleep.  I normally go to bed by 10pm, so 12:30am is a stretch!  Good thing hubby is going to let me sleep in tomorrow morning.

Today I have tons of work to do and limited time, so this post will be short.  Please know that all of you struggling this round are in my thoughts, and causing me to think there's something cosmic to all of our struggles this round (or is that a little too out there?). Interesting thought, right?  No matter, I'm going to take it one day at a time: my diet, my work, my yoga, my stress, my life, and remember to relish all the good bits and glance over all the bad.  Yes, thats me intending to do that...whether or not it actually happens is the question...

Monday, October 18, 2010

R3P2D17: +3.8

Current Weight 142.6
Weekend Gain 3.8

So cheating is bad.  And you will gain.  Or at least I did.  A lot.  Which Im ok with.  Im owning it.  Had much ice cream with oreo topping deliciousness both Saturday and Sunday night (much as in about 16 oz, egads!).  Didnt really eat much according to protocol at all.  My mind rebelled against all the meditation I had to do for the yoga weekend training, and said there is no way I am going to let you feed me a chicken salad again this weekend without cheese or bread or butter, or pizza.  And basically my hands said screw you when I tried to stop them from putting all these crap things in my mouth.  Again, Im owning this, but upon re-reading this, I seem to be owning it with body parts instead of my whole being. 

Im hoping that I can get back into the headspace needed to put me back on track so the next 11 days can result in some sort of loss that will stick once I head into P3 (and allow me to stabilize).  Im not there right now.  But Im going to take it one day at a time.  And thank goodness my favorite ice cream place is now closed for the season. 

Feeling under the weather from my dairy induced coma.  Wanted to run today, but thats not happening.  Thinking about doing a 6:30pm yoga class followed by Masters Swim, but that is a huge MAYBE right now.  Motivation has left the building and left in its stead a runny nosed whiner whose throat hurts and who is freezing since she isnt taking in any fat (outside of this weekend, that is).  Someone help me get back on track.  If I am going to stick to this diet for another 11 days, I dont want to do 800 calories and not lose anything, Ill end up sabotaging myself again.  What do you do to get back on track, when your heads not in it?

I really need to take a good look at my psyche and see whats going on there, since something is up with the way Ive been so all over the place with my thinking and behavior lately. 

Friday, October 15, 2010

R3P2D14: -1.5

Current Weight 138.9
Daily Loss 1.5
R3 Starting Weight 145.9
Loss this round 7
Total loss to date 50.1

So a mini steak day (and a big apple) and some time on the toliet (TMI?) got me down to 50lbs lost!  Hoping its not a short lived milestone after my busy yoga training weekend ahead.  Still only 7 lbs down after two weeks, but its something, right? 

The yoga text I am reading now, the Bhavagad Gita, explains that I need to act for action's sake and not be tied to the outcome or even the process.  I need to let go of expectation, focus my mind and not be swayed by my senses or random thoughts, and be happy with what is, no matter what IS is.   Something I definitely need to practice.  I have always had an issue with detachment, be it with material things, from desire, from emotions, and to think its as easy as to control your mind, focus on one single object, and let everything go-such a powerful concept.  So hard in the practice.  But it also says its can take lifetimes to get there, so at least I have some time, right?  Have wonderful weekends, my lovelies!

Thursday, October 14, 2010

R3P2 VLCD13: +.9

Current Weight 140.4
Daily Gain .9
Total Round Loss 5.5

Cheated SPECTACTURALLY  last night at book club.  I started off with one cookie and some cheese dip on top of the 100gms of chicken I brought with me.  Then  I wanted to try the amaretto almond cream cheese dip, so I did.  And then there were brownies, so I had one.  And some pumpkin cream cheese dip with some graham cracker cookies.  And then 4 more cookies.  And then two glasses of wine.  YUM!!!  It was so good, and each bite made me relax a little more, interestingly enough, knowing how crazy I am normally about not having even an oz or a few cals over the 500 during this round, and knowing that my cheat could cost me a gain of 5 or whatever pounds, and no loss for a few days.  But its all ok.  I only gained .9, and Im doing a modified steak day today, so all should be good.  And if its not, thats ok too.  Ive let go of getting the scale down any farther this round (though would be overjoyed if it happens), and am just concentrating on reshaping and getting back to working out big time in November.  So there you have it.  Dont try this at home, folks, especially those of you that commented that Im an inspiration....

Lets see what happens tomorrow.  Til then, I remain, humbly devoted to all my blogosphere buddies...happy releases today!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

R3P2D12: -.2

Current Weight 139.6
Daily Loss .2 (painful to lose so little!)
R3 Starting Weight 145.9
Loss this round 6.5
Total loss to date 49.4


Still no cheating going on, and still no loss going on.  Gained .2 yesterday and lost .2 today.  Ugh!  While I'm reminding myself to be gentle, thanks to yesterday's reflections (thanks for all your great comments!), this week has already been a bear, and I was really hoping for some scale love this morning.  The unreliable scale in the bathroom read 137, and I was all WOOT! WOOT!, and then my trusty Wii Fit tossed me back into reality. 

Funny, this round, Ive been a little depressed.  Hormones must be a-flying.  The last two rounds I was filled with peace and calm, and this time, all I want to do is jump out of the window.  Last night during my yoga class I zoned out in meditation, and that was wonderful, and let me release a lot of stress, but I jumped right back in this morning.  The kids were screaming, lots of noise, hubby was annoyed, and it was a little startling to my psyche, which wanted to bliss out again in all the quiet and peace of last night.

Tonight is my first book club on this round, and Im seriously thinking of enjoying the treats that will be laid out before me, especially as my fatalistic thinking is reminding me that my yoga training this weekend is going to set me back anyway.  At least I skipped at the amazing looking goodies at a co-workers bridal shower yesterday.  I even resisted (it was HARD!) bringing home treats for the boys since I knew they would be too tempting for me (and really, do I need to give them all that sugar.  I know better than that!).

Have any of you stopped before the 23 days?  If so, what happened?  Did the gain everything back and more fear come to be realized?  Obviously, Ill do the no sugar no starch thing for 3 weeks, but I really want to eat more veggies, and mix them, and eat more food, so Im thinking of stopping now.  This round the food portions seems so small and insufficiently filling.  And I have at least 11 more days to go.  With lots of stress and work and feeling overwhelmed with everything on my plate right now, Im not sure what to do. 

Help!

ps- here are some pics of me at 139.6:

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

EXPOSED again

 
As I mentioned yesterday, Mish over at Eating Journey, posted the most amazing entry back in October of 2009. She exposed herself, writing "I decided that I wanted to do something for myself, that shows who I really am. I can/could write all of the things which I hate about my body: wish I was stretch mark free, didn’t muffin-top, had a six pack. However, I have this body..in the stage that it’s in. I have to love it, accept it for what it is…and look forward to its positive changes”.
I exposed myself in March of this year, and was invited by Mish to do it again today in honor of her EXPOSED anniversary. Thanks Mish for inspiring a wonderful movement! Here’s the answers you asked for….

-Reflect upon and changes from what you wrote when you did and now.

I wrote the initial post 9 Mar 2010. At that point, I had just lost 30 lbs, and was feeling great. But I still saw all the little things in the mirror that I was afraid of, failure, not being around for my kids, back fat, muffin top, you get the drift. I had a plan and felt good about how I was going to get in shape, make myself over, and check things off of my bucket list, but it seemed like I had a long way to go to where I wanted to be.

-How has 'exposing' yourself impacted you?
When I post my picture the first time, it wasn’t the first time I put myself on my blog in a bikini, but it was the first time I actually thought about and wrote down all of the amazing things my body has done for me. Instead of berating it, or feeling bad about it, I reflected on all the things I took for granted; how I can walk and talk and breathe without thinking about it, how I was able to carry two children to term, about all of the things I’ve challenged my body to do, and it has complied, without much complaint. What an amazing body I have.
Since the first picture, I have lost an additional 20 lbs, and my thoughts and inner commentaries are a little gentler. I like looking in the mirror now, and I love that I can fit in size 4 and 6 clothing. I have worked out all summer, and my body is strong, and I have muscles, and not as many fat rolls. I feel good, and that is reflected in how I see myself in the mirror. But no matter what, I still occasionally berate myself with my thoughts. Think about how I’m not good enough, about how my body isn’t svelte enough, how I don’t work out enough, or I’m not fast enough when I’m racing or training.
Being EXPOSED again reminds me to give credit to all of the amazing things my body can do, all the amazing things I can do, and have done, and to stop looking at what I think are flaws in my psyche or body, knowing instead that they are actually just thoughts in my head, thoughts that can be changed. I am a strong, confident, beautiful woman, and I can do and be anything I want.

www.eatingjourney.com/exposed

And again, I ask, what do you appreciate about your body?

Monday, October 11, 2010

R3P2D10: -1.1

Current Weight 139.6 (YAY, 130s!!!!!!!!!!)
Daily Loss 1.1
R3 Starting Weight (after loading) 145.9
Total Loss this round: 6.5lb
Total Loss to date: 49.4lbs
Sat weight 140.2
Sunday Weight 140.7

I made it to the 130s, finally, a goal I have had since January!!!!!  I will reach the 50lb lost mark HOPEFULLY tomorrow...I have .6 to go.  Boy, what a journey.  I'm continuing to struggle with hunger and food cravings this round, and to top it off, every night I dream of food (and then wake up thinking I have cheated).  This is definitely my hardest round yet.  But Im choosing to continue working out, and I know that is probably affecting me, as is my attitude.  Two more weeks to go at the minimum...just keep breathing, Kelly.

Yesterday was a blast!  I did my warrior dash, a 3.15 mile course with 13 obstacles (like jumping over fire, and wading through chest deep FREEZING water and having to jump over logs, and crawling through mud under barbed wire), and we finished in about 45 minutes.  I went with a girlfriend of mine (see the pic posted yesterday) who was such a trooper.  She hasn't run in a long time, has bronchitis and yesterday TOM arrived for her (and no I didnt force her to go :)).  So I call her the ultimate warrior.  We stuck together for support, which was great, and ended up crossing the finish line holding hands.  So cool...Thanks Pam.  You ROCK!

After she drunk her disgusting beer (her words), we watched a few of the bands, cleaned off a little, and headed home.  Three hours of driving for a two hour event.  After I got home, I fell asleep for two hours immediately after finishing my shower (and almost fell asleep in there).  I was so exhausted.  Hubby  finally dragged me out of bed at 4:30pm since we had dinner plans.

We went to Ted's Montana Grill for dinner with hubby's parents, who were celebrating their wedding anniversary (40+ yrs), and I enjoyed a 4 oz filet with some asparagus and tomatoes (it was actually 8 ozs, and it was SO HARD to not finish the whole thing).  I mixed my veggies, and still lost, yay!  The kids were good (ie no one ended up crying, including me) and we had a very nice time.  Please join me in wishing congrats to my Mom and Dad in laws for reaching such an amazing milestone.  Here's to many more blessing filled, awe-inspiring, love fest filled years for you two!

And here's to my reaching another amazing milestone tomorrow. 

ps tomorrow is the EXPOSED anniversary for Mish at EatingJourney.com.  If you remember, I exposed myself earlier this year, and made known all the reasons why I love my body so.  So tomorrow, Im going to do it again, in honor of Mish's anniversary, and my amazing journey.  I invite you to join me!  You can also link to this website if you do it.

pss Measurements from today (in inches):

Waist 28.5
Hips 37
R thigh 21
R calf 14
Chest 33.25
Neck 13
Ankle 8.5
R arm 11

Have a wonderful week!

Friday, October 8, 2010

R3P2VLCD D7: -1.8

Current Weight 141.5
Daily Loss 1.8

Chicken at lunch and dinner yesterday, less spices and less braggs, and a big apple did the trick.  And thankfully my yoga and 1/2 swimming did not mess up my loss.  Good news.  I also have been drinking a little ACV in hot water, taking potassium and/or l-glutamine as needed, and trying to meditate or find something to do whenever I start thinking about food.  If I lose tomorrow, Ill be in virgin territory-at a weight not seem in 12 yrs!  Lets go for it.

Happy losses today, everyone.  And no more Zevia for me!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

R3VLCD D7- +.9

Current Weight 143.3
Daily Gain .9

So much for that short lived satisfaction of getting this weight loss ball rolling.  Oh well, I know the culprit, extra protein (50gms) total yesterday (even though I skipped my second fruit) and a can of Stevia soda (which had some erthylitol).  Oh well.  Today will be 100% on protocol, except for my exercise: yoga and Masters Swim are on the agenda for tonight.  I am definitely going to take it easy for Masters tonight (ie 1/2 swim max) since my shoulders have been a little sore. 

Rough morning so far.  Hubby and I are in a fight, and neither of us seems to be making the first move to forgive the other, and I just got a big reprimand from my boss at work for a misunderstanding over query writing.  Fun stuff, especially since my whole full time job work life right now is query writing.  Ugh!  Some part of me wishes they would move me off this project so I can do one that actually stimulates my brain and my enthusiasm.  The other part of me is just grateful to have a job that supports my other passions: health coaching and training to be a yoga teacher, Reiki Master, etc...more enlightened pursuits.  Ugh again! 

Hope you guys have a better day than the way mine started this morning...

 

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

R3P2D8- VLCD 6- 3.5 loss

Weight at R3VLCD1 145.9
Current Weight 142.4
Daily Loss 3.5

So, finally, I have started to lose.  I am actually under R2 LIW, thank goodness.  Lets just hope this water weight doesn't come back tomorrow...

I did a modified steak day yesterday, and boy was it hard.  I was so hungry starting around lunchtime.  I finally had 9oz of thin sirloin steak with all fat removed and three roma tomatoes around 4:45pm.  And then I went off to yoga class.  I did not get a run in yesterday, but that is definitely on the agenda for today, especially since the rain has finally stopped and I can get back outside.  Wimpy Kelly doesnt like running in the cold rain. 

Thanks for all of you comments yesterday, especially you, LD...they made me feel a whole lot better, and keep me going!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

R3P2D7- VLCD D5- 0 loss

Current Weight 145.9 (same as loading weight)
Loss: 0

Frustration has set in.  And Im really tired too.  TOM has left the buidling, but Im still lethargic and achy.  Tried a hot bath the other night, and a heating pad yesterday, but didnt really help the aches or the loss.  I even skipped a workout yesterday, and nothing.  Not losing pounds or inches right now.  UGH!

Thinking about doing a modified steak day today to get myself in motion.  Also planning a short run (really not motivated since the weather is so crap), and a yoga class tonight (requirement of my teacher training is to attend 3 classes per week), and try to focus on the other benefits of this diet outside of the weight and inch loss.  Yes, freedom from thinking about food all the time.  Cleansing my body of crap foods and beverages.  Getting in touch with my feelings about food and my life.  All good side benefits.  Boy, do I have to work hard to focus on them when I really just want to chuck it and go eat all the yummy stuff in the frig.

Yesterday my biggest and I went to the grocery store and bought all the breakfast and lunch items we would need for the week.  Then we proceeded to make all those meals (biggest was a big help, as he kept reminding me): bagels with peanut butter, sandwiches with lots of good cheese and cold cuts, salads with tomatoes, carrots, goat cheese, cantelope, grapes, brussel sprouts sauteed in olive oil and garlic: all no nos for me, and I kept feeling so limited.  But I will soldier on. 

I really wonder what will start the loss process for me this round.  For the other two rounds, my biggest losses were during the first two weeks, and if thats the case this time, Im running out of time.   And Im not at a weight that I stabilized at for very long at any point in my memory...My prayers were to reach the 120s this time, but at this rate, I might not even seen the 130s.

Do any of you drink diet soda during the protocol? Do any of you use L-Glutamine for general food cravings (ie feelings of limitation), or just specific ones?  And who uses a little coconut oil or mac nuts during P2 to get moving? 

Monday, October 4, 2010

R3P2D6-VLCD D4- .2 loss

Current Weight 146
Starting weight after loading 145.9
Daily Loss .2
Sat weight -.4: 145.5
Sunday Weight +.7: 146.2 (too much yoga! )

Wow, am I tired and sore from my first yoga teacher training weekend.  Obviously, no real loss here.  Im still up .1 from loading, and 2.5 from my R2 LIW.  I was definitely hoping to see more movement, but I bet Im holding onto a lot of water, and Im probably finally hydrated after all those weeks of diet soda dehydration.  Either way, I feel good, no bloating, (no cheating), and Im on track to go at least 23 days.

I havent been hungry really yet, though I am definitely having cravings.  Not for any food in general, just for more food, and the freedom to eat whatever I want.  I threw away a donut this morning, since my son didnt want it-and boy was that hard.  I also gave my favorite guacamole to my friend Meliss yesterday since it would go bad before my round is over, and I would have loved that too.  And there's Naked Juice in the frig that I love that I thought the kids would finish this weekend when I was at training, but no...so Im going to have to convince Hubby to drink it when he gets back tomorrow.  Not having the scale move, even though I understand why, really makes my rebel inner child want to eat.  Ill get through it, Im sure. 

Im sticking with my basic menu today as I have for these last few days: chicken salad and P2 chili (which will be especially good with the chill thats in the air).  My son is off from school today, so Im going to try to get all my work done early and then play with him later, in addition to going to the grocery store.  The real test will be this afternoon, when I plan to make everyone's breakfasts and lunches for the rest of the week...Im going to need to do that very soon after eating lunch (or maybe after dinner) to ensure the cravings dont knock me out. 

On the exercise front, this week will be a combo of running and yoga.  I have the warrior dash this Sunday and want to be prepared for it.  So today Ill run, Tues yoga, Wed run, Thur yoga, Friday run, Sat yoga, and race on Sunday.  We'll see what that does to my weight.  I know the protocol says to stick to your regular workout schedule and not add anything, but this is my experiment.  I wanted to do a round one last time before the year end, and this is really the only time I had where it wouldnt interfere with the holidays.  I'm happy at my current weight, but would love to get down lots more, since I still have those fun fat rolls (in my back and under my arms too, whats that about) and a little muffintop, and no wiggle room if I gain.  And its a way to really challenge all my food addiction tendancies...this diet gives them a real kick in the pants, and for that, its great!  Wish me luck!

And where are all my round buddies out there?  How are you guys doing? 

Friday, October 1, 2010

R3P2D3- VLCD D1

Current Weight (after loading): 145.9
Gain from loading days 1.1

Very strange to be up only 1.1lbs from loading.  Its not like I didnt eat what I wanted yesterday, I had lots of nuts, and crackers, and french fries, and pita bread, and ice cream, and pizza.  Thats a lot.  I also did 1/2 hour on my spin bike. So not sure what happened to have only gained .2 yesterday.  Gosh knows when I eat that stuff trying to be good, I gain 5 lbs.  Maybe TOM or the bath I took last night are the culprits.  Not that I am complaining, I just hope that I loaded enough for the next week.

Had a colonic this morning (lots of gas from all the dairy I had yesterday), and am about to cook my first VLCD meal.  Im going to have my P2 chili and an apple, and for dinner, some chicken salad with strawberries.  No headaches so far, despite the fact that I have been drinking caffienated diet soda for the last three week, and have gone cold turkey this morning. 

Hubby is in Vegas, hopefully enjoying better weather than the rainy mess we have here.  And I have lots of work to do and errands to run before heading off to my first yoga training tonight, so off I go.  Have a great weekend, and see you back here Monday!