Skinny Mini, that'll be me!

Introducing my new baby!

2011-12-11T11:20:00.000-05:00

HAPPIEST HEALTHY Holiday Wishes to you, my friends!

I am so excited to announce the birth of my new baby, the ezine "Radiant YOU!". This will be your go-to source of healthy education, inspiration and delicious nutritious FUN!

Its coming January 2012, and I wanted to share it with my nearest and dearest first. Want to join me in this fabulous endeavor? Sign up by clicking HERE.

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January's first issue will explore New Years Traditions, and why resolutions can HURT more than HELP you! Later in the month, look for tips to CLEANSE and RENEW in the New Year, with a special invitation to join my first group cleanse of 2012.

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Have the most wonderful of holiday seasons,

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Founder and Director, Flying Dragon Wellness

Creator of the RADIANT YOU Platinum Program

www.flyingdragonwellness.com

Lose the weight, the drama, and the stress and UNCOVER your BRILLIANT and SEXY Self!

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GETTING CLEAR AND GETTING THERE

2011-07-27T11:31:00.000-04:00

AUGUST 2011 Intentions

If you are like me, you are interested in a million things, and cant wait to find out more about all of them. You spend hours surfing the net and taking it all in, and then you wonder why you feel overwhelmed, undermotivated, and basically, a little off kilter. Yes, its great that I have so many interests, and want to explore the world at large, that related to my family, my interests, my business, my body, my spirit, and so much more. I wonder, though, does the way I explore these things really limit me from getting the most out of that which most interests me at the moment (which changes daily it seems)?

I process information and read very quickly. I superficially (ie one the surface) soak in that which appeals to me, making a mental note to go back and research that a little more in the future…I set bookmarks on my computer, I buy books like they are going out of style (and sadly, the paper ones are)….and when I look back a day, week, month later, I find that I never really look at those books, the computer bookmarks, the articles I save to read. I just keep floating around. Sometimes, I end up back where I started, which is fun. And sometimes, I look back in my files for things I did in my business years ago, that I realize are relevant now, and could really help promote my business now-but I forgot all about them!
Again, no judgement here. I really want to start to pay attention though, start to focus on things that will help me become a better nutrition coach, a better yoga instructor, a better yogini, a better wife and mother. Not because where I am in a bad place, or am not good at what I do, but because I want to change lives. I want to make a difference, and to do that, I feel its important to always reach further than you feel comfortable doing, to learn more, to expand. So I need start to pare down and really get deep with what grabs me, and then after Ive absorbed what appeals, move on to the next thing. Instead of having a 100 balls in the air all at once, which inevitably leads to 95 of those being dropped, I could have one to two things and really make those balls fly!
So how to focus? How to get clear? For me, I need a system. I need a schedule. I need a clear work space. And I need a way to check and see how I am doing, and see if I ready to move on.
My intention for the month of the August, is to set a schedule for my surfing. To make a filing system for my interests, and then to document them, do a brain dump, so that when I am ready to explore them, they are at my fingertips, documented, instead of rolling around in my head. I am going to limit my extraneous inputs, such as bravo tv, for example (real housewives, anyone?). I am going to write down the systems that I use to process and find information-nutrition, yoga, childrearing, etc, so that I may be able to help others limit the time they spend with the same searches. Take this thing that comes so easily to me and share it with others (maybe as a signature system for my health coaching practice, perhaps?).
I have wanted to read a number of books in my library and actually document a review of these books on good reads or amazon, somewhere that will increase my presence on the web, adding some expert status to my business (at least if my reviews are informative, in depth, relevant, and concise, fingers crossed!). Recent favorites have included the Four Hour Body, and Fierce Medicine.

I also intend to make time to cook the amazing foods I get from the CSA I belong too, instead of letting them rot in the frig for a week and then trying to make them tasty. And that will allow me to explore new recipes for veggies I've never had or enjoyed the past-lets try them again. And my family will reap the benefits of eating whole foods cooked with love, instead of odious processed bagged foods that we tend to go to when we only have a few minutes to get the kids fed. Lets make time for dinner around the table, shall we!!!!

I intend to teach at least two childrens yoga classes this month, 2-5 yrs old and 6-10- so that I can get my certificate for child light yoga. And of course, continue my weekly adult class at the country club.
I intend to get back into a daily meditation practice, whether that be moving meditation (dancing), seated meditation, or yoga nidra.

What do I need in order to meet my goals for August?

 Dedicated workspace (office)

 Clear workspace-no clutter or mess so I can really focus on what I want to focus on

 Calendar-schedule

o Need to make sure it includes what books I want to review and when, with a clear idea of how long it will take, without pressure to get this done, so I make it really easy for me to meet my goal

 Priorities exercise-whats important to me now, what do I want to focus on

o Also need to document what I have found in the past that tends to throw me off course and try to come up with idea for course correction

 Schedule time in every day for : dance (fun), exercise, tv, reading, cooking, meditation, brain dump (document everything I want to explore, that I found when surfing, etc) , surfing/email-and stick to that schedule

 Once per week, day off, no schedule

 Family meals-scheduled (since my hubby and I are like ships passing in the night)

 Vitamins-daily

I have a number of tools in arsenal to make my goals for this month a reality. I will start to dust them off and see which ones I really identify with at this stage of my lifecycle. Most importantly, I think the meditation is going to rock in this process. But I need to start on the clearing first, and make a commitment to keep things clear, take time to put things in their place, in order to keep this train on its tracks.

What about you? What do you want to happen for you in August? Share your intentions here!

She who cannot be contained...

2011-07-04T17:05:00.000-04:00

She Who Cannot Be Contained
By Lisa Schrader

In celebration of her Too Muchness.

Big hipped, loose lipped, sassy swagger, fierce hearted, emotional roller ocean all over, wanting more more more...

She Must Move,

gypsy girl spirit undulating snake rhythms hypnotizing,

slipping through your fingers, rattle you awake,

soul whisper wise woman running with the wolves

and lurking in the corners of your dreams

Women are Wet: joy teary, heart weary with weeping, blood mooning,

milk letting down, down, down

on pink petals, sweet nectar glistening

Giving, tending, mending, gathering the seeds,

sowing the cycles of blue sky, green harvest, fire burn and dawning dew.

She calls: worship me, open me, love me,

be warrior enough to penetrate my tender trust with your presence,

unleash the blinding magnificence of this she-beauty,

the jewels in the temple are yours...

Or don’t.

You’ll find me here the same

and ever changing,

luxuriating on the rose petal bed,

dipping my fingers in honey,

sipping wine song, and

dancing in the sacred, throbbing heart of Yes

How to get anything you want...

2011-06-27T15:20:00.000-04:00

by my favorite Rich Happy and Hot expert, Marie Forleo :

How to Get Anything You Want from Marie Forleo on Vimeo.

The Pleasure Principle

2011-06-23T14:58:00.000-04:00

I was lucky enough to attend the Weight Loss Pleasure Camp held at Omega Institute in Rhinebeck, NY this month. During the 5 day retreat, we learned all about how to give ourselves permission to feel pleasure, to explore it, to feel worthy of it, and to let it permeate all aspects of our lives. As a result, Im breathing more, tuning into my body more, slowing down, asking my animal (my gorgeous body) what she wants and likes, and listening....

Today I went for an hour long walk (not run, walk) in the humidity listening to some great tunes, and singing at the top of my lungs when I felt like it, dancing a little, and overall, really enjoying myself. My body did run a few times during the course of the four mile jaunt, because she wanted to, but this was not about working out or training for a race (which is so different than normal). It was about experiencing the pleasure of movement, the feel of sweat on my skin, the joy that good music brings to me, and basking in the heat of the sun. What a lovely experience. And you know, every experience can be like that. If you allow yourself to pay attention, feel it, glory in it, love it.

Lunch followed my lovely walk: a salad with tomatoes, yellow peppers, hemp seed, and the best dressing EVER (rosemary balsamic). I enjoyed every bite, I paid attention to every bite, I did nothing else but enjoy that salad, and the veggie soup I made from the CSA veggies I got last week. It was divine.

Make everything you 'have to do' something you 'get to do' and experience the difference that makes in your life. Pay attention. Dont worry about calories, think only of your pleasure. If you really pay attention to what your body craves, you'll find it wont be sugar all the time. It might be some alone time, a hot bath, a cup of tea, a hug from a friend, a dance around the living room. And when you experience pleasure in everything you do and everything you are, are you really going to care about what the scale says (the answer is no, in case you're vascillating :)

Here's to your pleasure...

Long time no write

2011-06-01T12:33:00.000-04:00

Hi fellow amazing beautiful women (and men if any of you are reading, you're so handsome! Yes, really you are!),

I am trying to recover from my foray into the world of HCG. I say this with the utmost respect for the diet. Yes, it definitely does work in the short term. But in the long term, it caused me to rebound and become obsessed with food, body image (well I guess thats been around for a while), and spiraling me into the world of compulsive overeating and further numbness.

If you follow my blog, you will see that I started the downfall around Oct 2010. I was so scared of my success, getting down to 133 (it was either fear or self sabotage), that I let it all hang loose during Halloween and the following holidays. Weight came on quickly, and I did nothing to stop it. I started another round of HCG this year, and again, let myself become victim to the craziness that came up in my head from lack of nutrients and feelings of failure. From Oct to Feb, I gained back 20 lbs, and Im just above that right now, after losing 10 lbs on the last round and regaining that plus a few.

Its been a rough ride. I have done lots of reading on the subject, and have found that for some people (like me)!, initially this type of diet is really good, but start to not weigh yourself daily (which was causing me to binge since I didn't like what the scale said), and allow yourself the devil sugar and you gain back like crazy-the rebound is swift and vicious.

And just to let you know, that gain occurred when I was working out at least one hour a day, doing yoga, running, swimming, circuit training, and biking. So I was not Mrs. Inactive.

I spiraled back into the pits of a depression that plagued me in my early 20's, and considered going back on antidepressants, until I remembered that they caused me to be anxious, and then I had to take an antianxiety med, and so on and so on.

I recently read the Diet Cure by Julia Ross, and she advocates a variety of supplements depending on specific conditions (low serotonin, low adrenal function, and ex dieter for me), and Ive been taking them for the past two days. I really don't like taking supplements, but I wanted to get out of this crazy headspace Ive been occupying for the last few months, and really get back to feeling like myself, and do it without rx pharmaceuticals, so I figured Id give it a tty.

Even though its only been 24 hrs, I feel better, much better. I looked in the mirror this morning and congratulate myself on going for a run two days in a row, even though my average pace is way high thanks to the heat and extra pounds- I even thought I looked pretty good. Im motivated to eat well, and haven't been tempted by sweets. Im hoping this continues and its not just the TOM affect.

Any of you out there having the same issues? I definitely do not think Ill be doing HCG anytime again. Unless perhaps I can eat a regular diet with it and then take it for its feel good affect (and still lose?). Anyone try that?

Hope everyone out there is doing well. Im going to start posting my food mood logs, if I find some time. Til then, happy times to you.

R4P2D12-VLCD D10

2011-03-28T23:10:00.001-04:00

Today's weight: 146.2

After eating to my hearts content at the party Sat night (bordering on more than a little compulsive) and gaining 2 lbs, I lost 2.6lbs this morning thanks to a P2 steak day (my creation?), which basically is 8oz of steak with a huge tomato, which I ate at 4:30pm (yes, I was hungry before and after!). But then I went and cheated again today, for no real reason other than I wanted some cookies, and then I said, ok what about diet soda and some pizza, yum! So now Im hopped up on caffeine, my stomach is bloated, and Im a little disappointed in myself. But Im wondering if I do another steak day tomorrow, what will Wed bring? Its an experiment. I am going into these cheats knowing full well that they might derail all progress and that I may need to 1)add more days to my round or 2) give up early and be happy with where I am and get back to working out (which i kinda miss). Either way, there are things in my life that Im really excited about, and that have my focus more than this diet. Master bath renovations started today, and I just got some blinging lighting that I will need to put together (yes, every crystal will need to be attached, but I got it for a steal!).

The bath is going to be zen meets nature, with pebble shower floor, iridiscent glass brick mosaic shower tile, a new vanity and a linen cabinet (yay storage!) and a bath with chromatherapy and champagne bubbles that I got as a showroom floor model (actually was able to see it working) and was able to save 5K on! The shower will have a overhead rain showerhead and then a handheld showerhead that can function both as a showerhead or as a body spray.

In addition to that excitement (over the top, though the having to go upstairs to use the bathroom at night is a little challenging), the kids are doing great, getting big and fiestier by the day, hubby and I are doing great, and yesterday I was able to take a yoga class with Seane Corne (awesome!). Im so very blessed.

How are you guys?

ps-dont do as I do with the cheating. Im the poster child for not setting a good example right now. Ill be back on track tomorrow!

pss-Lis, tell me about cycling. Maybe that would stop my little binges during P2!

R4P2D9- VLCD D7

2011-03-25T10:18:00.000-04:00

Highest Loading Weight: 154 (VLCD D2)
End of Loading Weight: 152.5
Current Weight: 146.5

So I think I have to do a round every March, since this one has been a lot easier since my last round in Oct. The first few days were AWFUL, I was detoxing something fierce, slept a lot, had a three day headache, and really laid low. I drank a lot of water and stuck to my P2 meals, and I was fine by D4. I really polluted my body after the last round: lots of sugar, lots of diet soda (which my body doesnt do well with, but which I was addicted to). But at least I stabilize in the low 150's so I didnt gain everything back.

I am currently 3 lbs above my LIW from R2, and what a difference 6 lbs makes. I fit in my clothes better already. Wild. Yesterday was the first time I was hungry this round, so I stocked up on some potassium yesterday. Little nervous about a party Im supposed to go to tomorow. There is going to be amazing food and dessert (chocolate mint ice cream pie-my favorite!!!!), and it starts at 5:30pm, prime eating time. My plan is to eat right before I leave, down loads of water at the party, and not allow myself to eat anything. I actually remember the party last yr-it was during my R1P3, and I cheated bigtime-though I only gained a pound so that was easily revised by a steak day. But during P2, I know if I cheat now, I would really be sabatoging myself this round, the only one I plan to do this year. My wish in the sky goal is to lose 20lbs this round (my fall over weight to lose would be 25lbs), to get back to the lowest weight I was at last round...being realistic, Im guessing it will be closer to 12 or 15. But we all know that if I cheat, thats going to be a lot less.

Monday our Master Bath remodel starts. Im so excited about it. In a month from now, Ill have a better bathroom and a better body-yay!

Happy friday-glad to be back!

Round 4! 1.5 Loss

2011-03-18T10:07:00.002-04:00

Thats right, another round. Took me a long while to decide if i was going to try again after my disastrous 3rd round which ended in Oct. Started this round on Wed, March 16- that was book club night and Thurs was St pats so great loading days...Nursing a shoulder/neck strain so I'll make myself lay off the weights for the next few weeks during P2- which is good because without it I would have kept lifting and probably lessened my success. Going to start up again asap in P3.
Before loading, I weighed in At 150.5.

Loading was strange: gained 3.5 day one then lost 1.5 the next day after all my St Paddys drinking- even though I ate a ton. Down to 151 today from a high of 154. Chicken has been on the menu since I haven't gone shopping for anything else yet. Hope to lose the 20lbs I gained since end Oct this round... Fingers crossed I can stick with it.
Definitely feel preggers: so tired, moody, and headachy. Hopefully that will go away in the next day or two after my body is done detoxing.
Happy supermoon.

Words from Anne Lamont (and me!)

2011-01-26T10:37:00.000-05:00

Over these years, my body has not gotten firmer. Just the opposite in fact. But when I feel fattest and flabbiest and most repulsive, I try to remember that gravity speaks; also, that no one needs that plastic body perfection from women of age and substance.

Also, that I do not live in my thighs or in my droopy butt. I live in joy and motion and cover-ups. I live in the nourishment of food and the sun and the warmth of the people who love me.

from My Secret Body

Not matter where you are on this journey to love your body, know that YOU are beautiful and lovable and whole. You need not change for me, I love you as you are, whomever you are, whatever size, shape, color, or type. Let the divine light in you shine.

-all me baby!

Gentle she goes

2011-01-07T11:58:00.000-05:00

So far so good on my New Years Intentions...Ive been listening to my body, feeding myself well, taking breaks when I need them, and pushing myself when I need to. Ive been fighting this terrific cold, so Im making sure to take my vitamins, limit sugar, and get lots of sleep, and Im feeling pretty good despite the illness, and TOMs arrival yesterday (one week early, though granted, he was 8 weeks late when he arrived last month). Ive dropped two pounds since the beginning of the week, and Im hoping my workout schedule (body pump 3 times per week, yoga three times per week, running at least once per week, and swimming once per week) in addition to my better eating keeps the numbers dropping. I do have 8 frozen syringes and a vial of 5000iu left from my last round (though no more syringes), so I MIGHT try another round this winter, but knowing what my headspace was after the last round, and my striving to be more vegetarian in my food consumption (again, gentle, so not going full steam ahead), I want to see if I can get my body to lose when Im not on HCG. And find out what that looks like.

I want to be a healthy eater all the time, choosing good foods/fuel for my body without worrying about what the scale says (so then I sabotage myself and rebel), and most importantly, I want to stop DIETING and start LIVING ( I know I sound like a Jenny Craig commercial, but its true) !!!!! I want to stop making excuses and stop lying to myself (ie I was born this way, Im big boned, I wont be able to lose the weight without HCG) . I am capable of great things and as my body is the vessel that allows me to do those things, it deserves to be treated well.

I know to do that I need to be prepared and I need to be accountable. I need to make sure I have heathly things in the house, and that I take the time to make them (no more withering away in the frig!!!!). I need to have greens in the house at all times. I need to have quick good food ready for those times when I have no time and Im itching to eat crap. When my head is telling me to go eat, I need to distract myself and avoid food until my body tells me its time to eat. I need to pay full attention when I eat and notice and enjoy every bite. I need to drink at least one glass of water before my meal. And I need to log my food and exercise so I can keep track of what worked for me (ie feeling powerful, strong, healthly and focused) and what Im too sensitive to or takes me out of balance or causes me to gain. On the gentle side, I am allowing myself my worst vice, diet soda, so I dont feel overwhelmed (diet soda is bad for me since I have reactions to the aspartame in it), and I will give that up again soon....

Today I have eaten two slices of rye bread (panera) with 3 tbs sunflower butter, 1 piece whole wheat bread (small) with margarine, and a big bowl of brussels, collard greens, bok choy stir fried with garlic and onion. Im still hungry, but Im going to give myself 15 minutes or so to see if thats my head saying I want to eat more or if Im actually hungry. I also did an hour of weight training and plan to run later this afternoon. So far so good...and the foods Im eating (lots of greens, good fats, some low glycemic carbs) are taking away my sugary cravings, so thats wonderful.

This weekend, four yoga classes are on the agenda, and date night with hubby (he doesnt know yet that I will be taking him to our Masters groups annual party after dinner at our favorite restaurant-should be a great time!). Next weekend I have to teach my first hour long class, and Im freaked out big time! But I will not allow the stress to overwhelm me or my fear to let me back out of it.

Got any big plans for the weekend? How are you doing with your resolutions?

Happy New Year!

2011-01-03T11:56:00.000-05:00

Here's to everyone that made it through the holidays without gaining an ounce and here's to those of us that upped our weight with luscious treats and now plan to get back on track!

Theres a lot of controversy over whether or not to set New Years Resolutions, as most of the people that do have a difficult time meeting their resolves and then feel guilty about it, which causes many of us to rebel against our inner compass and maker the situation even worse.

Instead of resolutions this year, I have set intentions: to be open, loving, kind, and gentle. Not only to and for myself but for all of those people I affect with my words or my actions.

To myself, since I have gained back 20 of the pounds I have lost, and I am having difficulty accepting that, and being ok with it (since thats really the only way the weight will come back off, if I am gentle and loving, otherwise, Ill binge and gain even more). And also, because almost all of the goals that I set for December to meet while I was on vacation are still on my to do list. This includes my yoga paper, three class transcriptions, cleaning my office and the basement and the garage, doing a new recipe a day, writing book reviews on all the nutrition books I have in my office/lending library, finding referral partners, and finishing my classwork for IIN distance learning (a program Im auditing). Im ok with all of it. Because I was able to spend time with my family, shop for some amazing gifts, meet new people, take lots of yoga, and go to Chicago to visit my family. I had a great time. And now Im ready to get back to work. Who's with me?

I would love to hear some of your intentions or resolutions. Anyone want to share (that is, if anyone is still out there after my December break.)?

Love to you all...

Another week

2010-11-29T10:17:00.000-05:00

has passed and finally the craziness of November is past (think four birthday parties, thanksgiving, two yoga weekends, and more!). Next week starts my 2 week vacation from work, and this week starts my lets get back on track program. Ive spent the last month being miserable about gaining all my R3 weight back plus some, but the excuses are over, and Im ready for action. I thought about doing a really short round before xmas, but nixed it, since I think the last round is what set off my eat everything in site for a month binge, and I dont want to go down that path again right now. Instead I have some things I plan to do everyday, as well as an intention for everything to work out as it should (and not be so strict about what that should look like, since my thoughts might be limiting).  I think something that really threw me off in the last month was the daily weight gain and my daily beration about that, and my forgetting that it actually took me as long to gain the 13lbs as it did to lose them on R3 (since my berating myself made me eat more in rebellion), so I also intend to be honest and gentle with myself (yes, I know, I try this a lot, one of these times it'll stick!).

As of today, Im back to 146lbs. I do mourn the gain of those 13 lbs, but I also see them as an opportunity to do better, and as a reminder of what is at stake. I feel so much better in my skin when I am lighter. I can do more physically, fit into my clothes, when I am lighter I am eating better and thus feeling better; mentally clear, physically strong.   I have a few weapons in my weight loss arsenal that I seem to forget about, and yes, EFT is one those, thanks ladies for those comments, as well as some ayurvedic options that I want to try. And I really think that by making my food every day in December (one new recipe a day is the goal), it will get me to a place of acceptance with food, and my desires, and get me back to a place of food being fun and nourishing rather than me vs food, which causes much angst in my head.

My basics are going to be:
1) Daily Multivitamin
2) Fish Oil/ Omega 3 supplement
3) Daily Food Intake Tracking on SparkPeople
4) 2000mg Vitamin D
5) Try my best to avoid all SODA
6) Yoga min 3xs week (goal is one class every day in Dec that Im off work)
7) Jogging min 2x week
8) Masters Swim min 1x week

I also want to try some new classes at the Y. They have a body pump class, which is heavy weight training in a class setting.   And I need to get used to running on a treadmill unless I want to freeze outside when Im running.

Im also doing a huge house clearing out. Im trying to get organized and have on my to do list to get rid of tons of clutter...so far, Ive sold 6 or 7 things on my local craigslist (yay!), and Im getting bookcases made for my office, which will be good, since I have SO many books these days (that will be my lending library for my nutrition clients-right now its known as my 'so many books in boxes all over my office floor mess').

Im really looking forward to having some time to myself without having to work, and spend time pampering myself and my family with good food, daily movement, and cleaning out. Anyone local to Pa-come by and we'll cook together!

Update

2010-11-22T14:13:00.000-05:00

Wow, its been a while since I last posted. Sorry about that, I was caught up in my food coma. Still trying to take it one day at a time, but it seems like the sugar is winning. I do so well for a few hours or even most of the day, and then are thrust into the trenches of hell when I find that someone has brought something sweet home, or the yoga studio is serving cookies, or...on and on. Im back up to my LIW from R2, up 10 lbs from my lowest weight on R3, and hoping to settle somewhere in between after the holidays and birthday hoopla is over. Im still planning on focusing on my health in December (yoga every day and a new healthy recipe) everyday, in addition to adding in Body Pump classes to see if I like them. That will be the key, right?

I just wish I could be one of those people that didnt crave sweets, that didnt have a problem obssessing over food, who could eat in moderation all the time, stop when I am full, and be satisfied. Until then, Im going to keep working, and SMILING, right?

Have a wonderful thanksgiving, guys. Ill catch you next week!

On the eve of my 39th yr

2010-11-14T23:48:00.002-05:00

So Im turning 38 in 13 minutes...pretty wild. Im up to about 141, lbs, and I decided to stop the diet a week ago last Sat, and have skipped all of the no sugar no starch thing as well. Im about 3 lbs above my LIW, but Im feeling fine. Im trying to eat according to what I feel my body needs, in addition to some added treats to combat my sugar cravings...yes, I succumb. But its all good. Ive been doing yoga everyday in addition to running twice last week (and somehow hurting my hip), and in December, Im going to start weight training in addition to my daily yoga. I was having a lot of issues with compulsive eating over the last month or so, as those of you that follow me know, and I decided that the only way to really not feed into that any more was to stop limiting myself with the protocol, and start listening to my body. So thats what Im trying. Im a work in progress and some days are good, and some are bad.

Advice Needed

2010-11-08T10:14:00.000-05:00

Current Weight 137.3
Daily Loss .7

So I need some advice...I didnt take my injection yesterday (though I have about 9 syringes left), and Im wondering if I should keep going or stop and have my LI be Sat? Im still up 4 lbs from my lowest on this round, and still 12 up from my goal weight, so part of me wants to stay on it and see if I can get down a little more, and part of me is so done with this round. My birthday dinner will be this Friday, Im going to a veggie potluck on Sat and then soon after is Thanksgiving. So if I stop now, my LIW will be much higher than I want it to be, but Ill have a little more freedom to eat. And if I dont stop, then I will definitely be cheating at least 4 times in the next two weeks. What should I do? I dont plan on doing another round with the HCG until mid next year, if at all, and I cant seem to lose on other diets.

What would you do?

R3P2VLCD D33- 137.4

2010-11-03T15:04:00.000-04:00

So I decided what the heck, weigh myself today, and I was 137.4. Thats ok I guess. Up 4 lbs from my lowest point last week :(, but fully deserved and less than 140. I even ate a bunch of brownies last night. Right now, Im kinda just making up my own protocol, so not sure if the weight Ive lost this round is going to stick. Today I decided to eat just when Im hungry, and I had a little handful of nuts this morning, a few grissinis around 11, 5 asparagus spears at noon, and then my chicken portion with three cups of romaine a few minutes ago. Not sure what Ill do for dinner, as I dont have anything prepared yet, and a friend is meeting me at my house right after I get home from work. I wonder if Ill be tempted by those brownies I made last night (with my new Kitchenaid MIXER! So excited, its my early birthday present from my inlaws since Im going to be doing a lot of baking in December!, and I had to try it to make sure it works, right? ). Dont want them right now, but you never know when they are in front of me. Maybe they are magic brownies and they will actually help me lose weight ;)... The mix I used was a gluten free one that I ordered over the summer and never ended up making.

If I keep this up this round will be more about reshaping, which is cool. Ill just keep going til I run out of syringes.

How are you doing?

Taking a step back

2010-11-02T15:17:00.000-04:00

So this weekend I was really thrown off. Im guessing I weigh about 140 right now, but havent weighed myself since Sunday morning. Went to a halloween party Sat night and had a brownie and a ton of diet soda, and was up to 136.4 Sunday morning (rough time . Then I ate EVERYTHING and ANYTHING I wanted on Sunday: tons of candy, a big hoagie, mozzie sticks, guacamole and chips, and it was all so good (4000+ calories worth). And I bet that brought me WAY Up...but Im ok with it. Steak Day yesterday (lots of those this round), and eating well so far today. Using my belly size as a guide to where Im at with my weight. I think Im going to wait til Sat to weigh myself again, and just eat really well till then.

The frozen syringes seem to be working out. No hunger and no weird side effects. I am assuming that all my eating behaviors are coming from energetic and physical stress that I am putting on myself based on all the stuff coming up from my yoga training (lots of trauma trapped in my body being released). And so Im working on that, and trying to find a safe and sane place (outside of obsession, binging and longing) in my pysche and house that I can identify and release all these issues. Been doing a lot of clutter cleaning and that seems to be helping.

Right now, I have a headache and Im ready to go home for the day. Hoping I start feeling a little better later...want to get out for a run. Havent been in a while, and that helps with my head stuff too.

Hope you guys are doing well. I hope to catch up on your blogs soon...

RP2VLCD D27: +.2

2010-10-28T08:26:00.001-04:00

Another gain (.2) and another really busy day. Just ate two cookies so Im sure not going to see a loss tomorrow, but who knows the way this round has been so crazy. I actually gained during a mini steak day yesterday (only since I didnt have time to eat until 4pm). Current weight is 133.8. See you tomorrow! And wish me luck, today is the first injection with one of the previously stored syringes...

R3P2VLCD D26: +.2

2010-10-27T15:59:00.005-04:00

So no loss, but no significant gain. Hoping its a fluke since I had some diet soda yesterday (about 6 oz). Dont have time to post more, but wishing all of you beauties great losses today!

R3P2 VLCD D25: -.6

2010-10-26T14:20:00.000-04:00

Current Weight 133.4
Daily Loss .6
Loading Weight VLCD D1: 145.9
Loss this round: 12.5
Total loss to date: 55.6

So Im down .6 from Sunday. Power was back on when I got home from the office yesterday, but I normally weight myself in the morning, so I decided to wait until this morning for the big reveal. Today Im feeling really sore. I did a yoga class last night in addition to my weekend training, and then I was carrying a bag full with veggies and realized, Ow...my arms hurt! Definitely been working those shoulders too much. But its really nice to start seeing definition in my arms (though the rolly polly stuff underneath my arms is still there-not sure how to get rid of that!).

I was originally planning on staying on protocol only until this Friday. Today would be my last injection, and then my last 72 hours would be done on Friday. That was until I started feeling really good on protocol after my cheat the weekend before last, and started moving my weight a lot more. At this point, Im going to keep going until my bottle of med is gone, which is one or two more days, and then Im going to use a few of the prefilled syringes I froze after my last round, rather than waste the meds, and see if those are still good. If so, Im just going to keep going until I reach my goal of 125, or until I start to feel lousy, or until I found out that the needles are not still good. So Im estimating max time on P2 this round to be 42 or 43 days. Which would mean both my birthday (Nov 15) and Thanksgiving would be cheat days (originally I was just planning on cheating for my birthday, in moderation of course!). I will need to do correction days for them...but at this point, when my goal is so close, I am ready for those.

Keep me in your well wishes for meeting my goal. Im so hopeful to make it... only 8.4 more pounds to go!!!!!

No weight today

2010-10-25T22:48:00.001-04:00

Power out all morning, couldn't weight myself. Just about to head to bed... Yesterday scale said 134. Here's hoping for even lower tomorrow- 55lbs down and counting!

Kelly Scotti
Founder and Director, Flying Dragon Wellness
Www.flyingdragonwellness.com

135!

2010-10-23T10:47:00.000-04:00

Don't know how this is happening, but I got down to 134.9 today- somehow yesterday I lost 3.1 lbs! WTF? I'm loving it but wondering if it's a fluke and it'll be up again tomorrow. Here's to the scale being even lower tomorrow! See you Monday!

R3P2D19: -2.2

2010-10-20T13:15:00.000-04:00

Current Weight 138.2
Daily Loss 2.2 (?)
Loss this round: 7.7

Very strange bedfellows, its like my cheat this weekend has jump started my weight loss, and taken away my food cravings. I still havent eaten anything today, and Im not even hungry, which is directly opposite my experience every day before the weekend. So I guess limiting my 1st loading, and getting TOM the day of my first injection really threw a wrench into things, and now maybe Im back on track? Who knows, I just hope this trend continues to go forward. This is the lowest Ive been weight wise since 1998! So cool!

Yesterday, my food consisted of chicken and asparagus, about three cups of tea with apple cider vinegar in it, and chicken and onions/baby bok choy in Braggs. I had an apple, some strawberries in WD chocolate syrup, and my melba toasts. So lower than 500 cals, and double chicken, and no issues. Im going to try the double chicken again today to see if that keeps the loss going. Its nice to see such a good release without having to do a steak day.

Happy losses today, everyone!

R3P2VLCD D18: -2.2

2010-10-19T10:08:00.000-04:00

Current Weight 140.4
Daily Loss 2.2 (modified steak day)
Total loss this round: 5.5

Some of the weight has come off, thats a good thing. I did yoga and swimming last night despite my lack of motivation, thats a good thing too. Today I feel awful: congested, cold, headachy, blah! And its raining and cold out so I wont be running outside today, my plan before I knew the weather. I need to make sure that I get some exercise in today so I can stay and coach my clients tonight without falling asleep. I normally go to bed by 10pm, so 12:30am is a stretch! Good thing hubby is going to let me sleep in tomorrow morning.

Today I have tons of work to do and limited time, so this post will be short. Please know that all of you struggling this round are in my thoughts, and causing me to think there's something cosmic to all of our struggles this round (or is that a little too out there?). Interesting thought, right? No matter, I'm going to take it one day at a time: my diet, my work, my yoga, my stress, my life, and remember to relish all the good bits and glance over all the bad. Yes, thats me intending to do that...whether or not it actually happens is the question...

R3P2D17: +3.8

2010-10-18T15:16:00.000-04:00

Current Weight 142.6
Weekend Gain 3.8

So cheating is bad. And you will gain. Or at least I did. A lot. Which Im ok with. Im owning it. Had much ice cream with oreo topping deliciousness both Saturday and Sunday night (much as in about 16 oz, egads!). Didnt really eat much according to protocol at all. My mind rebelled against all the meditation I had to do for the yoga weekend training, and said there is no way I am going to let you feed me a chicken salad again this weekend without cheese or bread or butter, or pizza. And basically my hands said screw you when I tried to stop them from putting all these crap things in my mouth. Again, Im owning this, but upon re-reading this, I seem to be owning it with body parts instead of my whole being.

Im hoping that I can get back into the headspace needed to put me back on track so the next 11 days can result in some sort of loss that will stick once I head into P3 (and allow me to stabilize). Im not there right now. But Im going to take it one day at a time. And thank goodness my favorite ice cream place is now closed for the season.

Feeling under the weather from my dairy induced coma. Wanted to run today, but thats not happening. Thinking about doing a 6:30pm yoga class followed by Masters Swim, but that is a huge MAYBE right now. Motivation has left the building and left in its stead a runny nosed whiner whose throat hurts and who is freezing since she isnt taking in any fat (outside of this weekend, that is). Someone help me get back on track. If I am going to stick to this diet for another 11 days, I dont want to do 800 calories and not lose anything, Ill end up sabotaging myself again. What do you do to get back on track, when your heads not in it?

I really need to take a good look at my psyche and see whats going on there, since something is up with the way Ive been so all over the place with my thinking and behavior lately.

R3P2D14: -1.5

2010-10-15T10:58:00.000-04:00

Current Weight 138.9
Daily Loss 1.5
R3 Starting Weight 145.9
Loss this round 7
Total loss to date 50.1

So a mini steak day (and a big apple) and some time on the toliet (TMI?) got me down to 50lbs lost! Hoping its not a short lived milestone after my busy yoga training weekend ahead. Still only 7 lbs down after two weeks, but its something, right?

The yoga text I am reading now, the Bhavagad Gita, explains that I need to act for action's sake and not be tied to the outcome or even the process. I need to let go of expectation, focus my mind and not be swayed by my senses or random thoughts, and be happy with what is, no matter what IS is. Something I definitely need to practice. I have always had an issue with detachment, be it with material things, from desire, from emotions, and to think its as easy as to control your mind, focus on one single object, and let everything go-such a powerful concept. So hard in the practice. But it also says its can take lifetimes to get there, so at least I have some time, right? Have wonderful weekends, my lovelies!

R3P2 VLCD13: +.9

2010-10-14T11:58:00.000-04:00

Current Weight 140.4
Daily Gain .9
Total Round Loss 5.5

Cheated SPECTACTURALLY last night at book club. I started off with one cookie and some cheese dip on top of the 100gms of chicken I brought with me. Then I wanted to try the amaretto almond cream cheese dip, so I did. And then there were brownies, so I had one. And some pumpkin cream cheese dip with some graham cracker cookies. And then 4 more cookies. And then two glasses of wine. YUM!!! It was so good, and each bite made me relax a little more, interestingly enough, knowing how crazy I am normally about not having even an oz or a few cals over the 500 during this round, and knowing that my cheat could cost me a gain of 5 or whatever pounds, and no loss for a few days. But its all ok. I only gained .9, and Im doing a modified steak day today, so all should be good. And if its not, thats ok too. Ive let go of getting the scale down any farther this round (though would be overjoyed if it happens), and am just concentrating on reshaping and getting back to working out big time in November. So there you have it. Dont try this at home, folks, especially those of you that commented that Im an inspiration....

Lets see what happens tomorrow. Til then, I remain, humbly devoted to all my blogosphere buddies...happy releases today!

R3P2D12: -.2

2010-10-13T08:54:00.002-04:00

Current Weight 139.6
Daily Loss .2 (painful to lose so little!)
R3 Starting Weight 145.9
Loss this round 6.5
Total loss to date 49.4

Still no cheating going on, and still no loss going on. Gained .2 yesterday and lost .2 today. Ugh! While I'm reminding myself to be gentle, thanks to yesterday's reflections (thanks for all your great comments!), this week has already been a bear, and I was really hoping for some scale love this morning. The unreliable scale in the bathroom read 137, and I was all WOOT! WOOT!, and then my trusty Wii Fit tossed me back into reality.

Funny, this round, Ive been a little depressed. Hormones must be a-flying. The last two rounds I was filled with peace and calm, and this time, all I want to do is jump out of the window. Last night during my yoga class I zoned out in meditation, and that was wonderful, and let me release a lot of stress, but I jumped right back in this morning. The kids were screaming, lots of noise, hubby was annoyed, and it was a little startling to my psyche, which wanted to bliss out again in all the quiet and peace of last night.

Tonight is my first book club on this round, and Im seriously thinking of enjoying the treats that will be laid out before me, especially as my fatalistic thinking is reminding me that my yoga training this weekend is going to set me back anyway. At least I skipped at the amazing looking goodies at a co-workers bridal shower yesterday. I even resisted (it was HARD!) bringing home treats for the boys since I knew they would be too tempting for me (and really, do I need to give them all that sugar. I know better than that!).

Have any of you stopped before the 23 days? If so, what happened? Did the gain everything back and more fear come to be realized? Obviously, Ill do the no sugar no starch thing for 3 weeks, but I really want to eat more veggies, and mix them, and eat more food, so Im thinking of stopping now. This round the food portions seems so small and insufficiently filling. And I have at least 11 more days to go. With lots of stress and work and feeling overwhelmed with everything on my plate right now, Im not sure what to do.

Help!

ps- here are some pics of me at 139.6:

EXPOSED again

2010-10-12T13:31:00.002-04:00

As I mentioned yesterday, Mish over at Eating Journey, posted the most amazing entry back in October of 2009. She exposed herself, writing "I decided that I wanted to do something for myself, that shows who I really am. I can/could write all of the things which I hate about my body: wish I was stretch mark free, didn’t muffin-top, had a six pack. However, I have this body..in the stage that it’s in. I have to love it, accept it for what it is…and look forward to its positive changes”.
I exposed myself in March of this year, and was invited by Mish to do it again today in honor of her EXPOSED anniversary. Thanks Mish for inspiring a wonderful movement! Here’s the answers you asked for….

-Reflect upon and changes from what you wrote when you did and now.

I wrote the initial post 9 Mar 2010. At that point, I had just lost 30 lbs, and was feeling great. But I still saw all the little things in the mirror that I was afraid of, failure, not being around for my kids, back fat, muffin top, you get the drift. I had a plan and felt good about how I was going to get in shape, make myself over, and check things off of my bucket list, but it seemed like I had a long way to go to where I wanted to be.

-How has 'exposing' yourself impacted you?
When I post my picture the first time, it wasn’t the first time I put myself on my blog in a bikini, but it was the first time I actually thought about and wrote down all of the amazing things my body has done for me. Instead of berating it, or feeling bad about it, I reflected on all the things I took for granted; how I can walk and talk and breathe without thinking about it, how I was able to carry two children to term, about all of the things I’ve challenged my body to do, and it has complied, without much complaint. What an amazing body I have.
Since the first picture, I have lost an additional 20 lbs, and my thoughts and inner commentaries are a little gentler. I like looking in the mirror now, and I love that I can fit in size 4 and 6 clothing. I have worked out all summer, and my body is strong, and I have muscles, and not as many fat rolls. I feel good, and that is reflected in how I see myself in the mirror. But no matter what, I still occasionally berate myself with my thoughts. Think about how I’m not good enough, about how my body isn’t svelte enough, how I don’t work out enough, or I’m not fast enough when I’m racing or training.
Being EXPOSED again reminds me to give credit to all of the amazing things my body can do, all the amazing things I can do, and have done, and to stop looking at what I think are flaws in my psyche or body, knowing instead that they are actually just thoughts in my head, thoughts that can be changed. I am a strong, confident, beautiful woman, and I can do and be anything I want.

www.eatingjourney.com/exposed

And again, I ask, what do you appreciate about your body?

R3P2D10: -1.1

2010-10-11T08:57:00.002-04:00

Current Weight 139.6 (YAY, 130s!!!!!!!!!!)
Daily Loss 1.1
R3 Starting Weight (after loading) 145.9
Total Loss this round: 6.5lb
Total Loss to date: 49.4lbs
Sat weight 140.2
Sunday Weight 140.7

I made it to the 130s, finally, a goal I have had since January!!!!! I will reach the 50lb lost mark HOPEFULLY tomorrow...I have .6 to go. Boy, what a journey. I'm continuing to struggle with hunger and food cravings this round, and to top it off, every night I dream of food (and then wake up thinking I have cheated). This is definitely my hardest round yet. But Im choosing to continue working out, and I know that is probably affecting me, as is my attitude. Two more weeks to go at the minimum...just keep breathing, Kelly.

Yesterday was a blast! I did my warrior dash, a 3.15 mile course with 13 obstacles (like jumping over fire, and wading through chest deep FREEZING water and having to jump over logs, and crawling through mud under barbed wire), and we finished in about 45 minutes. I went with a girlfriend of mine (see the pic posted yesterday) who was such a trooper. She hasn't run in a long time, has bronchitis and yesterday TOM arrived for her (and no I didnt force her to go :)). So I call her the ultimate warrior. We stuck together for support, which was great, and ended up crossing the finish line holding hands. So cool...Thanks Pam. You ROCK!

After she drunk her disgusting beer (her words), we watched a few of the bands, cleaned off a little, and headed home. Three hours of driving for a two hour event. After I got home, I fell asleep for two hours immediately after finishing my shower (and almost fell asleep in there). I was so exhausted. Hubby finally dragged me out of bed at 4:30pm since we had dinner plans.

We went to Ted's Montana Grill for dinner with hubby's parents, who were celebrating their wedding anniversary (40+ yrs), and I enjoyed a 4 oz filet with some asparagus and tomatoes (it was actually 8 ozs, and it was SO HARD to not finish the whole thing). I mixed my veggies, and still lost, yay! The kids were good (ie no one ended up crying, including me) and we had a very nice time. Please join me in wishing congrats to my Mom and Dad in laws for reaching such an amazing milestone. Here's to many more blessing filled, awe-inspiring, love fest filled years for you two!

And here's to my reaching another amazing milestone tomorrow.

ps tomorrow is the EXPOSED anniversary for Mish at EatingJourney.com. If you remember, I exposed myself earlier this year, and made known all the reasons why I love my body so. So tomorrow, Im going to do it again, in honor of Mish's anniversary, and my amazing journey. I invite you to join me! You can also link to this website if you do it.

pss Measurements from today (in inches):

Waist 28.5
Hips 37
R thigh 21
R calf 14
Chest 33.25
Neck 13
Ankle 8.5
R arm 11

Have a wonderful week!

2010-10-10T12:33:00.001-04:00

R3P2VLCD D7: -1.8

2010-10-08T10:09:00.000-04:00

Current Weight 141.5
Daily Loss 1.8

Chicken at lunch and dinner yesterday, less spices and less braggs, and a big apple did the trick. And thankfully my yoga and 1/2 swimming did not mess up my loss. Good news. I also have been drinking a little ACV in hot water, taking potassium and/or l-glutamine as needed, and trying to meditate or find something to do whenever I start thinking about food. If I lose tomorrow, Ill be in virgin territory-at a weight not seem in 12 yrs! Lets go for it.

Happy losses today, everyone. And no more Zevia for me!

R3VLCD D7- +.9

2010-10-07T09:46:00.000-04:00

Current Weight 143.3
Daily Gain .9

So much for that short lived satisfaction of getting this weight loss ball rolling. Oh well, I know the culprit, extra protein (50gms) total yesterday (even though I skipped my second fruit) and a can of Stevia soda (which had some erthylitol). Oh well. Today will be 100% on protocol, except for my exercise: yoga and Masters Swim are on the agenda for tonight. I am definitely going to take it easy for Masters tonight (ie 1/2 swim max) since my shoulders have been a little sore.

Rough morning so far. Hubby and I are in a fight, and neither of us seems to be making the first move to forgive the other, and I just got a big reprimand from my boss at work for a misunderstanding over query writing. Fun stuff, especially since my whole full time job work life right now is query writing. Ugh! Some part of me wishes they would move me off this project so I can do one that actually stimulates my brain and my enthusiasm. The other part of me is just grateful to have a job that supports my other passions: health coaching and training to be a yoga teacher, Reiki Master, etc...more enlightened pursuits. Ugh again!

Hope you guys have a better day than the way mine started this morning...

R3P2D8- VLCD 6- 3.5 loss

2010-10-06T08:10:00.000-04:00

Weight at R3VLCD1 145.9
Current Weight 142.4
Daily Loss 3.5

So, finally, I have started to lose. I am actually under R2 LIW, thank goodness. Lets just hope this water weight doesn't come back tomorrow...

I did a modified steak day yesterday, and boy was it hard. I was so hungry starting around lunchtime. I finally had 9oz of thin sirloin steak with all fat removed and three roma tomatoes around 4:45pm. And then I went off to yoga class. I did not get a run in yesterday, but that is definitely on the agenda for today, especially since the rain has finally stopped and I can get back outside. Wimpy Kelly doesnt like running in the cold rain.

Thanks for all of you comments yesterday, especially you, LD...they made me feel a whole lot better, and keep me going!

R3P2D7- VLCD D5- 0 loss

2010-10-05T09:22:00.000-04:00

Current Weight 145.9 (same as loading weight)
Loss: 0

Frustration has set in. And Im really tired too. TOM has left the buidling, but Im still lethargic and achy. Tried a hot bath the other night, and a heating pad yesterday, but didnt really help the aches or the loss. I even skipped a workout yesterday, and nothing. Not losing pounds or inches right now. UGH!

Thinking about doing a modified steak day today to get myself in motion. Also planning a short run (really not motivated since the weather is so crap), and a yoga class tonight (requirement of my teacher training is to attend 3 classes per week), and try to focus on the other benefits of this diet outside of the weight and inch loss. Yes, freedom from thinking about food all the time. Cleansing my body of crap foods and beverages. Getting in touch with my feelings about food and my life. All good side benefits. Boy, do I have to work hard to focus on them when I really just want to chuck it and go eat all the yummy stuff in the frig.

Yesterday my biggest and I went to the grocery store and bought all the breakfast and lunch items we would need for the week. Then we proceeded to make all those meals (biggest was a big help, as he kept reminding me): bagels with peanut butter, sandwiches with lots of good cheese and cold cuts, salads with tomatoes, carrots, goat cheese, cantelope, grapes, brussel sprouts sauteed in olive oil and garlic: all no nos for me, and I kept feeling so limited. But I will soldier on.

I really wonder what will start the loss process for me this round. For the other two rounds, my biggest losses were during the first two weeks, and if thats the case this time, Im running out of time. And Im not at a weight that I stabilized at for very long at any point in my memory...My prayers were to reach the 120s this time, but at this rate, I might not even seen the 130s.

Do any of you drink diet soda during the protocol? Do any of you use L-Glutamine for general food cravings (ie feelings of limitation), or just specific ones? And who uses a little coconut oil or mac nuts during P2 to get moving?

R3P2D6-VLCD D4- .2 loss

2010-10-04T09:31:00.000-04:00

Current Weight 146
Starting weight after loading 145.9
Daily Loss .2
Sat weight -.4: 145.5
Sunday Weight +.7: 146.2 (too much yoga! )

Wow, am I tired and sore from my first yoga teacher training weekend. Obviously, no real loss here. Im still up .1 from loading, and 2.5 from my R2 LIW. I was definitely hoping to see more movement, but I bet Im holding onto a lot of water, and Im probably finally hydrated after all those weeks of diet soda dehydration. Either way, I feel good, no bloating, (no cheating), and Im on track to go at least 23 days.

I havent been hungry really yet, though I am definitely having cravings. Not for any food in general, just for more food, and the freedom to eat whatever I want. I threw away a donut this morning, since my son didnt want it-and boy was that hard. I also gave my favorite guacamole to my friend Meliss yesterday since it would go bad before my round is over, and I would have loved that too. And there's Naked Juice in the frig that I love that I thought the kids would finish this weekend when I was at training, but no...so Im going to have to convince Hubby to drink it when he gets back tomorrow. Not having the scale move, even though I understand why, really makes my rebel inner child want to eat. Ill get through it, Im sure.

Im sticking with my basic menu today as I have for these last few days: chicken salad and P2 chili (which will be especially good with the chill thats in the air). My son is off from school today, so Im going to try to get all my work done early and then play with him later, in addition to going to the grocery store. The real test will be this afternoon, when I plan to make everyone's breakfasts and lunches for the rest of the week...Im going to need to do that very soon after eating lunch (or maybe after dinner) to ensure the cravings dont knock me out.

On the exercise front, this week will be a combo of running and yoga. I have the warrior dash this Sunday and want to be prepared for it. So today Ill run, Tues yoga, Wed run, Thur yoga, Friday run, Sat yoga, and race on Sunday. We'll see what that does to my weight. I know the protocol says to stick to your regular workout schedule and not add anything, but this is my experiment. I wanted to do a round one last time before the year end, and this is really the only time I had where it wouldnt interfere with the holidays. I'm happy at my current weight, but would love to get down lots more, since I still have those fun fat rolls (in my back and under my arms too, whats that about) and a little muffintop, and no wiggle room if I gain. And its a way to really challenge all my food addiction tendancies...this diet gives them a real kick in the pants, and for that, its great! Wish me luck!

And where are all my round buddies out there? How are you guys doing?

R3P2D3- VLCD D1

2010-10-01T12:04:00.000-04:00

Current Weight (after loading): 145.9
Gain from loading days 1.1

Very strange to be up only 1.1lbs from loading. Its not like I didnt eat what I wanted yesterday, I had lots of nuts, and crackers, and french fries, and pita bread, and ice cream, and pizza. Thats a lot. I also did 1/2 hour on my spin bike. So not sure what happened to have only gained .2 yesterday. Gosh knows when I eat that stuff trying to be good, I gain 5 lbs. Maybe TOM or the bath I took last night are the culprits. Not that I am complaining, I just hope that I loaded enough for the next week.

Had a colonic this morning (lots of gas from all the dairy I had yesterday), and am about to cook my first VLCD meal. Im going to have my P2 chili and an apple, and for dinner, some chicken salad with strawberries. No headaches so far, despite the fact that I have been drinking caffienated diet soda for the last three week, and have gone cold turkey this morning.

Hubby is in Vegas, hopefully enjoying better weather than the rainy mess we have here. And I have lots of work to do and errands to run before heading off to my first yoga training tonight, so off I go. Have a great weekend, and see you back here Monday!

R3P2D2-Loading Day 2

2010-09-30T14:55:00.000-04:00

Current Weight 145.7

Up .9 from yesterday, so it looks like my combo loading day worked. I think I needed to drink a little more water, as Im feeling vey dehydrated, and I had a huge leg cramp during yoga yesterday that still persists today, so Ill be taking my magnesium just to see if thats the issue. TOM has stuck around with a bang, but stomach is flatter than its been in weeks, depsite that. Love the HCG!

Measurements were pretty good this morning, still the same since July!!!!
Waist- 30
Chest 34
Hip 38
R thigh 21.5
R calf 14
Neck 13
R arm 12
Ankle 8.5

Today, my loading has consisted of lots of nuts, chocolate granola, crostini, and a chicken souvlaki (pita, chicken, tiztiki sauce, and veggies), and chocolate peanut butter ice cream awaits me this afternoon. I'm going to have a colonic tomorrow to make sure everything is nice and clean for the start of my VLCD (also had one last week), and then start my daily P2 chili and chicken salad meals (pretty much my daily meals during R2P2). Then tomorrow night starts my yoga training!

Hubby is off to Vegas tonight with his buddies, so I am wishing him lots of luck at the tables, lots of fun with his friends, and safe travels back to his family (and lots of money coming back to us would be good too :)!).

Hope you guys have a great day~

R3P2D1- Loading at 144.8

2010-09-29T12:24:00.000-04:00

Current Weight 144.8
LIW R2 143.5
Measurements: to be done after loading

So starts my loading for R3. So far, Ive had two meatballs (from a Primo's Hoagie), a whole sleeve of Pico De Gallo Wholly Guacamole (YUMMY!) with some crostini, and am looking forward to some mixed nuts and ice cream later. Im doing kinda of a eat the last bits of what I crave (ie ice cream and crackers) and load up on good fats loading, so I dont gain too much, but do have the fat I need to get me through my first week. I really dont want to gain more than 3lb from loading, as I really hope to reach the high 120s by end of October (yes, body, we can do it, please ?!?!?!?!).

This is going to be a very interesting round. I plan to keep exercising throughout (swimming, biking, running, yoga), and am starting my yoga teacher training this Friday night...that will most likely be pretty hard core (8 long weekends in 3.5 months), though I have been practicing at least 2-3xs a week for the last month or so. Not sure how that will affect my weight. I also am planning my first shorter round. My first round was 50 days and the second I believe was 40, so this time 30 days is my max. I want to be done with my 3 weeks of P3 before Thanksgiving, and maybe even in time for some birthday cake for me and my sons (we were all born within 5 days of each other in November).

For those of you wondering, I do SC injections. This morning I mixed 5000 ius of HCG with 14.25ccs of bacteriostatic water, and that will give me approx 28 175iu injections. If I do my skip days like Im supposed to, and the HCG stays stable (in the frig, in its box, covered by foil to not be damaged by the light), I will only need one batch for this round. Funny, less than an hour after my injection, TOM arrived (not due for a week or so)...or at least I had spotting. We'll see if he sticks around.

So, who out there wants to be round buddies? I have a feeling Im going to need lots of support this round!

ps-something I want to share, at least to remind myself. Someone asked me about my spiritual practice, and I said this: Every thing I do, every moment, is a part of my spiritual practice. I focus on the stillness inside, and the peace and beauty all around me. Pretty profound, I thought, immediately after verbalizing it. And sometimes more true than at other times. I am a work in progress, and my life is such a blessing.

R3 in two weeks!

2010-09-15T15:25:00.001-04:00

Current Weight 145 (steak day)

Above LIW 1.5

Time is sure flying, isnt it? In only a few weeks my hubby is off to Vegas for a long weekend, I'll start a yoga teacher training program (though I still havent figured out which one), and Ill be starting R3 to drop another 20lbs (fingers crossed).

Today has been a good day so far, though I succumbed to the brownies and cookies being served at one of my coworker's surprise baby shower. Later on, Ill be tempted by the culinary delights being served at book club. But all is good. I will eat in moderation (subliminal messaging, please work), and since I ran for 40 minutes today, I have an additional 400 calories to work with...

How is YOUR day going?

Race Story and More

2010-09-13T16:05:00.001-04:00

Current Weight 147

Above LIW 3.5

So my Mom's birthday was this past Thursday (Happy Birthday, Mom!). Being the good daughter I am, I called her to wish her a Happy Day, and chatted with her about life and whats new. I mentioned that I was considering doing yoga teacher training, and she said in response, 'you remind me so much of my dad. He was never satisfied, he was always trying to grow and learn more'. Immediately, in response to her first words, I was transported back to my teens and my 20s, and my early 30s, when I have heard her say that I am never satisfied before...and then I reflected on her next statement, you are always trying to grow and learn more...I asked her, when you say that, do you mean it as a negative? Because I ALWAYS took those words never satisfied as a negative (she never said the grow part before). And she said no, she said she was always so impressed with it, and it was so unlike her. Boy, was I thrown for a loop. It was as if a bomb exploded in my head. You mean all those things I thought, that my mom didnt approve of what I do, that she doesnt think I am happy with what i do or have, that I cannot be satisfied-that was all wrong, and instead she was impressed and happy and maybe a little envious...wow, to have that clarified after assuming something else for so long was amazing. And it is causing me to rethink lots of things, and be more open, and less critical of myself. Wild, huh?

So on to the race story. You know that the last tri I did I blew my front tire, and road on it for 4 miles anyway, right? Well, this time, I blew my first tire at mile 10, and was lucky enough to have someone stop and help me fix it- I was also prepared with an intertube and all the tools I would need to change it. The second tire, again the front, blew at mile 15-just my luck! I only had 8 more miles to go, and I was feeling great. No pain, good time, and wanting to finish. I waited for some help, 10 minutes, then more, and no luck. I was only about 1/2 a mile from a turn where there were some state policemen, so I started walking. I had to take off my bike shoes since it was too hard to walk in them, so I walked in my socks to them, and ended up cutting the bottom of my foot (didnt find that out until I went to put my running shoes on in transition and saw the blood). The nice officer drove me back to the transition area, or should I say, to the entrance of the park where I got back on the bike and rode in so I wouldnt be disqualified (they were pretty lax, and I was one of the last people to finish, so I didnt think it a big deal. I knew if I was DQed I wouldnt find out my official times, and I wanted to, so thats the only reason I didnt report it, really....hey, Im telling you, right. Full disclosure. Anyway, by the time I got back to transition, it was really later than it would have been if I had rode the 8 miles back on a full tire. So I went on to finish the run, and ultimately finish all but 8 miles of the race. As I did it just to prove that I could, especially in regards to the swim and the run, I felt really good about my results. I ran all 6 miles in ~10 minutes each, despite those sand dunes and all the varied terrain, and the cut on my foot, and I swam the mile in less than 40 minutes, which is what it normally takes me in a pool. And the bike portion-15 miles-took me less than and hour which isnt too shabby. I would haev loved to not have gotten those flats to see my real time.

My next race is the warrior dash... on Oct 10th; I just registered today. You go through 13 obstacles, like jumping over fire, and crawling in the mud under barbed wire, while running 3.23 miles. It should be a blast. I love this body of mine...

And since I will be doing yoga teacher training and running during my next round, you and I will get to see first hand how exercise affects someone who is conditioned during HCG. I have a feeling that I will be tired, and not lose as much, but I will be good either way. I look and feel great, and though I want to lose another 20 lbs to get to 125, its really just gravy, since I have a whole new life that I love. And wonderful bloggy friends like you...you know you all rock, dont you?

Race Results

2010-09-12T19:50:00.001-04:00

Still not posted yet on the race site yet, though I know I did 38:01 on the swim, 1:32 on bike ( I'll share that story tomorrow- though it involves two flat tires and a friendly NJ State policeman), and unofficially 61:20 for the run. I say unofficially since I timed myself when I started the run, about two minutes after I crossed the timing mat due to a much needed bathroom break, just a short detour from the race route. I was really impressed with my results, and glad that I was able to get out of the I can't do it mentality that I had up to the point that I did the race. Yep, it sounds like a lot, but if you train your mind and your body, you can do it. Dare I set my sites on completing a 1/2 ironman next yr (1.2m swim, 56m bike, 13.1m run?

How was Your weekend?

So NERVOUS!

2010-09-10T19:32:00.000-04:00

Weight 145

Above LIW 1.5

Tomorrow is the big day, my first Olympic. I've borrowed a wetsuit that somewhat fits, ate garlic noodles from PF Changs for my carbo-loading, packed my tri bag and readied my bike, and am off to bed in 1/2 an hour. Ill be getting up around 5:30 to quickly shower, load my bike, grab my sunflower butter bagel and caffeine and get on the road for my hour and a half drive. This is the latest Ive ever had a tri start, 9am, so I wont be done til 12:30 or 1pm...boy, that blows my mind.

Wish me luck, and happy finishing thoughts! This is the start of a whole new mindset and skill set!

Happy weekend everyone, see you alive and well on Monday.

R2P4D71-Stressed and blessed

2010-09-09T10:23:00.001-04:00

Todays Weight (from non reliable scale): 144.5

Yesterdays Weight: 146

Tuesdays Weight 148 (steak day)

So the Wii fit is no longer working...and I am mourning its absence. For the past three days I've had to weigh myself on the scale in the bathroom that can fluctuate 2-3 lbs over the course of 1-2 minutes. So while it says 144.5 Im not sure its there exactly, though my belly is a pretty good predictor, since I can tell how much Im up but how much Im bloated. Its actually pretty cool to be that tuned in to my body and know where Im at for my weight. It makes me think that weekly weighing might be possible for my psyche (though Im not there yet :)

Ive been pretty stressed the last few days, since my biggest is starting Kindergarten (he is getting so big!!!!) tomorrow and because Im contemplating doing my first olympic distance tri this weekend. I committed at the beginning of the season that I would do an olympic distance, which for this event is a mile swim, 24 mile bike, and a six mile run...but Im scared. Scared of not finishing, scared of finishing but being the last one, scared of injuring myself or my ego. I might even be a little scared of finishing and doing ok, because then I would be committed to doing olympics in the future (psychologically, at least, because of my own strict perfectionistic tendancies). The weather is supposed to be great, the race fees arent astronomical, the course is techinically flat and easy, and no one I know will be there to judge (or support on the con side). But just thinking about it gives me butterflies and makes me break out in goose bumps. I tend to do things that scare me though, since I know its going to be a growth experience. And I would be disappointed in myself if I dont do it because of a little fear. So in other words, I guess Im doing it. WTH, right?

So wish me lots of luck and warm water (since the wetsuit I got last year doesnt fit anymore, and Im doing the swim on my own)...

Im also deep in thought about which yoga teacher training program Im going to register for. Two of them start the first weekend of Oct (one for 8 weeks, one for 16 weeks) and then there is one that I would need to go away for 24 days for that starts after Thanksgiving (2 sessions of 12 days at Kripalu in Western Mass). Im not sure which Im going to do since I havent decided on which teacher or type of yoga I like the best and want to teach, and I need to decide by next week. I also am a little scared again, since getting in front of a group and leading really makes me uncomfortable. But again, growth, right? And I can add yoga to my holistic bag of tricks (that Im currently not using!). On some level, I feel like if I keep adding things to my practice that I will be more attractive to clients, though I have to start looking for clients to get them, right?

All good things going on...and Im so grateful to have the opportunities and the means to check things off on my bucket list (yoga teacher and triathlete)...so now Ill just start to think calm thoughts, let the answers come and the fear subside.

What are you afraid to do that you really want to do, and how do you handle it?

R2P4D68- Great weekend!

2010-09-06T20:17:00.000-04:00

Weight: No idea, probably round 149 (due to size of belly)
Fun: tons!

This weekend was a blast. Friday night was first friday in our town and we walked there to watch hubby do his budakon presentation in front of all of the visitors-he did great, despite his nervousness. This was after I spend the afternoon buying two used bikes- a Kuota K Factor Tri bike, and a Specialized Ruby Expert Road bike. I got them from a triathlete that is now being sponsored by Kuota, and so she gets her bikes for free. Spent tons of time in traffic on the way back, but boy, do I love these new bikes. Planning on getting fitted for them sometime this month, and will be rolling them out for my next tri season.

Saturday morning, my biggest and I went to garage sales, which is always fun. Hubby and I spent the afternoon cleaning the house in prep for our Sunday BBQ, and getting ready for our Trapeze Lesson. Yes, if the pics I just sent to blogger come out, you'll get to see me flying through the air. It was so scary and SO FUN!!!! We ended up hitting it off with our instructor and she joined us for a few drinks at the Indian Rock Inn afterwards, just down the street from the camp where the lesson was held. And then we went to our favorite restaurant in Doylestown for dessert after one drink at MOMs. A full and amazing night.

Sunday we partied with some of our neighbors and longtime friends too at our BBQ (love those rhymes) after I ran my first 5 miles continuous ever (thanks for the push, Kristin!). The day was full of great food, weather, and conversation. And today I took an amazing yoga class, in prep for yoga teacher training this fall. It was a perfect weekend, and a great way to end the summer.

What did you do this weekend?

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R2P4D62- 2.9 loss

2010-08-31T13:10:00.001-04:00

Daily Loss 2.9

Current Weight 145.3

Above LIW 1.8

It sure is hard to get back to posting after being on vacation for a week. Especially when my mind is still back at the beach :)...I cant believe its been 15 days since I last posted...

I gained a little more than 5 lbs at the beach, but already am back down below where I was the day we left (1.8 above LIW). Somehow, without trying, yesterday, I lost 2.9 lbs, more than the Steak Day the day before. Go figure. Today was my son's kindergarten meet up, and I had a cookie there. And a piece of french bed pizza for lunch with some doritos. Not the best choice of foods, but at least Im not overindulging like I normally do when I eat those foods. And roasted chicken with brussels and salad are on the menu for dinner, so I should be ok. I definitely want to get back to below LIW soon...

TOM arrived yesterday with no hoopla...and again, my appetite has been decreased since his arrival. Still wondering about that. I also wonder how my next short round (ETA Oct 1st) will affect my hormones in the next few months...

How are you guys doing? How was your summer (and can you believe its over :(?

Ps- I did another sprint Triathlon (Tri the Wildwoods) on the 21st, and did really well. 29 minutes on the beach run, 33 minutes for the 10 mile bike, and a slow ocean swim (but it was the ocean!): 18 minutes for 1/4 mile (definitely felt longer than that though)...I still have yet to sign up for an olympic and time is running out. Not sure its going to happen, especially since the pool I go to is closed for a week, and the only Olympics in the area are on Sept 12th...not much time to practice...

R2P4D47-2.0 loss

2010-08-16T11:17:00.001-04:00

Current Weight 146.3

Daily Loss 2lbs (steak day)

Friday weight: 146.5 (still working to get down from sisters visit)

Saturday weight: 147.4 (Friday night neighbor great together-lots of cc cookies)

Sunday weight: 148.3 (Hersheypark junk food fest)

The summer takes the posting enthusiasm right out of me...that in combination with my sisters visit, tons of work, and getting ready for next weeks vacation makes it hard to find the motivation or the time to post. And I think this being above my LIW for more than a week makes me really uncomfortable too...especially since I dont feel good even 3 lbs about LIW. My clothes fit differently, my waist expands. And I know that unless I have tremendous willpower next week, I will definitely be up above LIW so I want to get down way below this week before we leave. With only 5 days, though and another book club tomorrow night, and being 3 lbs above it right now, Im not thinking its going to happen.

So am I ok with that? I have it in my mind that with all the exercise Im going to be doing for the rest of my life, with the fall and winter coming and many fewer get togethers, and of course, with my committment to this new body, I should not be concerned. But weren't excuses what got me here in the first place?

How do you balance the scales to allow fun and pleasure in without breaking your spirit or the scale?

R2P4D43- .2 loss

2010-08-12T15:26:00.001-04:00

Current Weight 147.1

Daily Loss .2

Above LIW 3.6

Working to get down to my LIW, even though you wouldn't guess it with all the fun stuff I ate at book club last night. I hosted and served steak and cheese taquitos, pepperoni and cheese savories, nutella and pretzels, lots of fruit and veggies, and foccacia with vegetable bruschetta. Yum! I also had two glasses of wine and was very excited that I didnt gain anything this morning. Fingers crossed that the loss continues...after all the brussel sprouts I ate today, I dont know what to think.

Have to get some exercise in today. I did a Jackie Warner DVD last week encompassing weight and core training and really enjoyed it. While Im thinking of it, might as well get my butt up...and then Masters tonight if we miss the thunderstorms?

Whats your favorite type of workout?

And who's ready to see Eat Pray Love tomorrow? (i cant wait, I LOVED the book)...

What a weekend!

2010-08-10T12:45:00.001-04:00

Sis and her hubby left today. We had a blast: Phillies Game, Atlantic City, the beach, Stockton, NJ (where my hubby and I were married and lived for a little while)...we ate a lot, laughed a lot, and I sure will miss her, as will the kids.

Up 7.8lbs from Thursday (141.5 then, 149.3 now), and doing a steak and nut day to get myself back within LIW range. Hosting local bookclub tomorrow and then another busy weekend awaits, so hopefully the weight will just drop right off before I start piling it back on. I will learn moderation when traveling...just not yet.

See you tomorrow...hope you all are well!

R2P4D35- up 1.5

2010-08-04T21:32:00.001-04:00

Current weight 145

Ate lots of sugary highly caloric stuff yesterday... Mint ice cream, pizza, nutella, so the gain is understandable. I'm hoping my clean eating today gets me back down, since I'll be eating out most of the weekend. My sister and her husband are coming to visit tomorrow night and staying til Tuesday so we'll be away doing the touristy thing. My hope is that I don't have a repeat of the Lancaster 9.3 gain...though I do plan to enjoy myself this weekend.

Did my normal wed pilates/ yoga/ running routine today. Tomorrow I'm going to try to get to the pool after work for a swim before giving blood, picking up my food club food, and then heading to the airport.

What are your plans for the weekend?

R2P4D33-SheRox

2010-08-02T12:04:00.001-04:00

Weight 143.5

Up 2 lbs from Sat

Exercise: 560m swim, 15.5 m bike, 3.1m run in 1:47:30

So guess who finished the bike portion of the SheRox Philly triathlon with a flat tire, which blew around mile 11, and for which said triathlete did not get off the bike because she wanted to finish in under 2hrs? Yep, that would be me. I thought I heard something happen with the tire on the second lap of the bike course-it sounded like it popped, and then it got much more difficult to ride on, but I figured, maybe I was wrong, since I was still able to pedal and keep my speed up, and since I assumed if it was flat, I wouldnt be able to ride it, right? Nope, after the race I found out that tire was way flat...so much so that Im surprised I didnt hurt myself by flipping over the handlebars when the bike decided it was done. I was so focused on finishing, that I didnt have time for flat tire.

I had a few guardian angels yesterday in addition to the bike finish fairy...the forecasted thunderstorms (or almost hail storm) that could have canceled the swim and made the race a duathlon, or which could have called the race altogether didn't start until we finished the race and were walking our bikes back to the car (after I changed out of my wet clothes, just to be back in wet clothes again). And I was guaranteed a under 2 hr finish if I did ok, just because they shortened the swim course by 200yds without giving us a good reason. But even with the longer course, I would have finished in under 2, because I had a REALLY awesome race. My best ever bike time and run time. Even when I run without doing anything else, the best I was able to do for a 5k in practice was 31 minutes and I finished in 29:36...I beat my time from 2007 by 37 minutes!!!!! Minus the max 10 that it would have taken me to do an extra 200yds,and thats still a whole lotta time!

It was a great day...I wasnt tired afterwards, I actually had lots of energy, and I really think if I keep up my training regimen that I can do an Olympic distance next month (1m swim, 30m bike, 10k run). Not sure if my schedule will allow it, but Im going to look...

Hubby and the kids came down to watch, which was AWESOME. And since the race parking was next to the Please Touch Museum and since it was pouring, that's where we spent the afternoon drying off. The kids had a blast, and Mark and I were able to wear them out a little so we wouldnt have to work as hard once entertainign them once we got home...that time was for relaxing in front of the TV. And then taking a long hot bath, and bedtime by 9pm. All in all, I was very pleased with Sunday, August 1st. And I think I look pretty good in my pics too! Let me know what you think...

SheROX race results

2010-08-01T19:11:00.000-04:00

KELLY SCOTTI #644

DOYLESTOWN, PA

Age: 38 Gender: F

Distance	Short
Clock Time	01:47:30
Overall Place	300 / 993
Division Place	50 / 159
Swim	00:17:07
Swimrank	549
Trans1	00:02:05
Bike	00:56:42
Bikerank	286
Mph	16.4
Trans2	00:01:47
Runrank	398
Run	00:29:46
Pace	00:09:36
Penalty	0

YEAH!

R2P4D30- .7 loss

2010-07-30T10:40:00.000-04:00

Back down to 142.9, so thats good. Swam in the second lane again at Masters last night...its the faster one, the one I need to keep my flippers on in order to keep up...and they do a lot more distance than lane 1.

Today Im going to be practicing my transitions from swim to bike and bike to swim. I want to see if I can get my shoes off on the bike and be able to run to the area with my running shoes without falling off and hurting myself. I also have quick laces for my jogging shoes that dont require tying, but I need to make sure they dont put any extra pressure on my ankle or toes during the run...or else whats the point?

On another note, Im going to try to attach my wording for the bracelet, even though I have to do this from yahoo...lets see if this works. If so, let me know if you like it...

Wish me luck this weekend, and fine weather wishes. 60% chance of thunderstorms right now forecasted, which could me instead of a tri it would be a du, and I definitely dont want that to happen...

R2P4D29- .2 above

2010-07-29T19:49:00.000-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Current Weight 143.7
LIW 143.5
Over LIW .2
Food Tracker (choose July 29th)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 25 minutes pilates, 40 minutes yoga, 36 minutes running (10:30min/mil)

Finally got my background back up, and my weight back down. Im .2 above LIW. Ive been trying to stick close to my calories limit of no more than 1550 plus the calories I burn during my workouts, so I should be good today, since Ill be swimming in an hour, and yesterday since I worked out hard. Even though I had skinny cow ice cream sandwiches yesterday and today, and primo's hoagies too!

Sunday is the big day, my first tri of the season. I have to get up at 4:15am Sunday morning to get down to the race site in Philly by 6ish and ready to race by 8. Then it'll be all over by 10:30, and Ill get to spend the day with the kids at the zoo or at the Please Touch Museum (depending on the weather) before falling into my bed by 4pm, Im sure. Im really looking forward to it...the race AND the sleeping.

Lots of things going on in my head, and soon in my world, even more than normal. Im hopefully going to be traveling abroad for vacation in Sept or Oct, either to Italy, Costa Rica, or my favorite, Thailand. Hubby has given me the thumbs up to leave him and the kids for a week so I can travel with a friend. He's not really big into international travel, so its more desirable for him to have me spread my wings, and he can stay home and watch sports without being bothered :)...truly!

I am also thinking of doing either yoga teacher training in Oct or getting a personal trainer certification. Dont really want to do both at the same time, because I think that MIGHT be a little too much, and I dont want to overwhelm myself too much. When I do the yoga training, I also want to make sure Im not distracted, and immerse myself fully so I get the most out of it. It should be wonderful. And since I cant travel for a month without the kids, I have to stay local to do the teacher training, even though it would be amazing to go to India and train. So thats big. Just gotta find the studio I want to work with. Theres one in town that Im going to do unlimited classes with in Sept to see if its a good fit.

I also have something in the works that Im pretty excited about...Im thinking of doing a jewelry line (specifically bracelets for now) that relate to weight loss and would serve as a constant reminder of how important it is to be aware of what we eat. I am having a prototype made right now, and if it works out like I hope, Ill be offering them for sale on my blog, and of course, having a giveaway for my bloggy peeps! Anything you'd like to see on a bracelet (up to 6 words)-you're welcome to post it here:

Here are the sayings I've come up with so far (and Ive tm'ed the first one):
Every bite is a choice and a pleasure (thats the one Im making for myself and may mass produce)
Vote with your fork (for my food coop buddies)
Delicious, sublime, serene awareness
Slow and sure, you're doing it!

Wait till you see it, its going to be awesome, though it might take me a month or so...

Technical Difficulties

2010-07-26T13:33:00.001-04:00

Looks like my blogger background is gone, so Im going to have to reload it this week. Pardon my appearance while I update it...

And just as an fyi, Im up 3lbs from Friday. Doing steak day today. Rode 30 miles yesterday, lots of hills. It was VERY hot all weekend. And I am ready to rock SheROX on Sunday...goal is sub 2hr...but I figure Ill be closer to 2:15...all ok!

R2P4D23- .7 loss

2010-07-23T10:38:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3

Current Weight 143.7

LIW 143.5
Over LIW .2

Food Tracker (choose July 22nd)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 3 miles walk/run; Swimming 50 minutes

Oops, forgot to post yesterday. Yesterday I lost .7 and today I lost .4. So Im right back into LIW again, just in time for the weekend.

This summer Ive been eating lots of whole foods, and loving it. I've been trying to make a new recipe every week, and trying new veggies, so yesterday I did both. I made okra fries for the first time (okra lightly coated in olive oil and sea salt, oven for 15 minutes at 400 degrees)...and really enjoyed them.

Next on the agenda is zucchini. Ive had it before, but never found a way to cook it that Ive enjoyed, so this time I am going to try it roasted, in a lasagna, and in a raw dish. Ill share the recipes after I try them...dont want to share anything that isnt delicious and nutritious, right (says the poet who doesnt know it)?

Got one week before my tri, so biking is first and foremost on the exercise schedule for this weekend. When I ride, my knee and neck still hurt, so I have to find a way to get a little more comfortable. There is the TOUR DE TINICUM this weekend, and one of the routes is 34 miles, so Im probably going to do that Sunday morning if the weather cooperates (yes, Ive only done 12 miles so far at a single session this season). And then next week, Ill focus on doing bricks (two sports following one another) on M, W, and Friday and tues and thurs Ill focus on practicing transition. I still need to figure out how to get my shoes to stay on the pedals without dragging during transition from swim to bike and bike to run (since I got new tri shoes that stay on the pedals and then you slide your foot into them once you are on the bike-saving you time), in addition to figuring out how to get my foot into the shoes without toppling over. Thats going to look pretty comical to passerbys, Im sure.

If any of you want to take a step towards triathlon, let me know, I would love to put together a coaching group. Maybe help you guys do you first one next spring?

On that note, back to work. See you on Monday...hopefully in one piece!

Versatile Blogger Award

2010-07-21T21:58:00.001-04:00

Thanks LavenderDiva, for nominating me for a Versatile Blogger Award:

My friend LD, from HCG & Me on the Road to Find Out nominated my blog for a Versatile Blogger Award. Thank you LD, Its my first award!!!! I feel so honored. And sorry, I didnt know that I needed to do anything once I received it, thats how green I am about receiving awards...

As a recipient I must share 7 things about myself, and nominate 15 other blogs. Thats a lot of work, but Im going to try...

7 things you might not know about me:

One: I love to read. I read at least one book a week, and sometimes up to 4, depending on my schedule. I always have at least one book on CD in my car for when I need to go to the office as well.

Two: I'm originally from Markham, Il, about 15 miles outside of Chicago (south side). Despite going to free Sox games for perfect attendance or straight A's, Im a true Cubs fan.

Three: I received a valedictorian scholarship to DePaul University, even though by the time I graduated high school, I was third in my class (damn those AP classes and their extra points!)

Four: The only time I haven't had a job since I was 15 yrs old was when I studied in Sheffield, England for a semester abroad my sophomore year in college. That was a great semester.

Five: I went to graduate school for Biopsychology and Behavioral Neuroscience but dropped out after the first year. Thank GOD! Too much BS and butt kissing, not enough real learning, and no terminal master degree, so why wait? It was the hardest and the best decision of my life.

Six: I dated my first boyfriend for 6 yrs. Another thank god that Im not in that relationship any more. I am now happily married to the love of my life, 8 years and counting.

Seven: I am a Holistic Health and Nutrition Coach, and as such, I love helping people find balance and experience total nourishment in all aspects of their lives.

Blog Nominations:

Mommy Gone Milf with HCG

Journey Beyond Survival

Its Just Me, Drazil and Sheniqua

Did I just Eat that Out Loud?

Athena Diaries: Tales from the back of the pack

Less of Me

Escape from Obesity

Kath Eats Real Food

BYT

Most of the other nominations I would make, LD already made (you know who you are!)...so Im stuck here at 9...some of whom I follow but they have so many followers that they dont acknowledge awards, Im sure...but its the thought that counts, right?

R2P4D21- .7 gain

2010-07-21T15:57:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3

Current Weight 144.9

LIW 143.5
Over LIW 1.4

Food Tracker (choose July 20th)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): Nada

Today: 30 minute pilates, 40 minutes yoga, 1hr biking (only 12 miles :(

Made it to the cemetary and the reception yesterday, but not without crying, most of all because my sensitive hubby couldnt stop the waterworks, and I cant help but support him in his endeavours. Really, it brought up a lot of issues, most of all, the fact that my friend, who means a great deal to me, is suffering from thyroid cancer herself, and her father's death just brought out the fear that she might suffer a similar fate. When I spoke with her at the reception, however, she said that she is at peace because of the truths her father was able to speak to her about before he passed. He told her that he asked god to spare her and take him instead, and that god agreed. And whether or not you believe that or not, its pretty powerful stuff. I know I would make the same deal for my kids' lives.

We decided not to stay and eat yesterday because the emotions were a little too high, so we went to Primos instead and got some hoagies. I admit I ate the whole 8 inch one I got: whacked chicken: chicken tenders, sharp provolone, pesto and bruscetta. Amazingly good. I didnt even check the calorie count, but Im sure it was in the 1000 range. So worth it.

Today, I got back on my bike, deciding I need to be on it every day it doesnt rain until my tri next Sunday, August 1st. Not sure why Im scared of riding lately...especially on the street, but I guess Im more afraid of getting injured now when Im in such good shape, because that could lead to not such a good shape, if you get my drift. Im still struggling to lose, and somehow get to my goal of 125/130. And I have 5 lbs to lose by next Sunday if my goal of getting in the 130s before my tri is to be realized. i just have to buck up and do it, if Im serious. No eating out until then, no junk, cleaning eating and daily exercise. Do I want it that bad? Yes, and no...

fyi...Books im reading right now (that I highly recommend):

The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin

The Beck Diet Solution by Judith Beck

The Four Day Win by Martha Beck

Our Lady of Weight Loss by Janice Taylor

R2P4D20- 1.1 loss

2010-07-20T08:16:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3

Current Weight 144.2

LIW 143.5
Over LIW .7

Food Tracker (choose July 19th)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 4 mile run (10min/ml); 40 minute swim

Hovering around my LIW, so thats good. I splurged a little last night, having two skinny cow ice cream sandwiches, so I wasn't sure what to expect, even with the 800 calories I burned working out yesterday. Its strange, but I can burn 800 calories, only take in 1500 calories, and still not see much of a loss. Do you find it the same way? I want to get tested in one of those bod pods to see how fast my metabolic rate is, since Im assuming its really slow...I always gain when Im over 1600 calories no matter how much exercise I did that day. And I still want to test the food combining principle for myself...gotta remember to do that.

Today I am attending the funeral of a friend's father. Well, actually, since I have a work meeting that I cannot get out of, I will be only going to the cemetary and the reception, but at least my husband will be at the mass. Her father passed away only 3 weeks after being diagnosed with gallbladder cancer. For me, I think I would prefer to live only a short time after a terminal diagnosis like that, since I wouldnt have to suffer as much. And my family wouldnt have to see you in such a horrible state for months on end. But I also know how hard it is to lose someone so quickly when you are not expecting it, and to not have time to say goodbye. My father died in 1999 at age 73-he decompensated very quickly due to a host of issues after not being sick once in my memory. I didnt make it home to see him before he passed, and maybe thats good because he didnt suffer long. But it was hard for me. I had lots of issues with my dad, and I never really felt that I had closure. And oh, the guilt of not being there...thats rough too.

M-our hearts go out to you and your family.

R2P4D19- I didnt weigh...

2010-07-19T13:23:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss/Gain NO IDEA

Current Weight NO IDEA

Saturday weight 144

Sunday weight 145.3

Exercise Tracker (yesterday):

Saturday-yoga

Sunday1 hr slow walk pushing jogging stroller, 20 minutes spin bike

I actually skipped the scale today. Had to come to the office, and I just didnt feel like it. It was freeing, liberating, a little scary, and honestly, Ill probably go back to weighing again tomorrow, but I feel good. I didnt eat too much over the weekend, and I didnt obsess about eating either...which was wonderful, and probably why Im not worried about the scale. Ever since TOM arrived on Friday Ive felt different about food...and yes, he did arrive, I forgot to tell you. First time since D13 of R2P2. Very weird TOM, though, he is not as effusive as he normally is, didnt cause me any mental strife, didnt announce his coming, and he seems to want to stick around for a while, causing bloat and confusion.

Since Friday, I haven't had my thoughts clouded by food, when is my next meal, oh I cant wait to have that, etc. Im really enjoying it. And I havent been very hungry at all, which could be him as well, or the heat.

Lots happened this weekend, especially in terms of my parenting skills. I have been reading The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin, and she mentions some of the parenting tips she has come across in her research that have been most helpful to her...and Im loving trying to employ them with my kids. This weekend, without argument, I got my oldest to clean all the dog poop in the yard, take a shower on his own, walk the dog 1 mile (normally he doesnt walk the dog, and he has never walked a mile), watch his brother for a few minutes (without ignoring him for the TV, which is huge!), and go to bed without argument and without asking for more TV. Yes, I am $3 poorer, but it was worth every penny, and Im teaching him responsibility, respect, instilling confidence, self worth and security in him. I just hope I can keep this up....no yelling, talking respectfully to him, hearing him out, acknowledging his feelings-its a lot of work!...and yes, he deserves every bit of it, and I promise I wont be too lazy...

On a darker note, he reported to me that a kid at school was punching him in his private areas. I had read a blog post on Friday about being open and honest about talking about this with your kids....ie making sure they use the words penis and vagina, making sure they know that no one is to touch them in these areas (unless mommy and daddy for washing if needed, or for potty training-depending on age), and also that they know how to report it if someone is touching them inappropriately. So I had that talk with him last night, and found out the news. I made sure he wasnt just joking around, and made sure he knew that he had to tell his counselor and I would too the next day. This morning when I talked to the asst director, the camp indicated that a lot of time kids goof around like that when they are that age (5), but that they consider it very serious and will discuss it with the child and the parent. I just hope this hasn't effected my son long term. And what if I hadn't asked? I urge you to have a discussion about this with your kids, if you dont already. Its so scary to think about all the ways they can be hurt that arent visible...

All of you, take good care today...

R2P4D16- .7 loss

2010-07-16T10:46:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss/Gain .7

Current Weight 144.6

Thurs gain/weight: 2.4/145.3
LIW 143.5
Over LIW 1.1

Food Tracker (choose July 15th)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 1 hr slow walk pushing jogging stroller

Too run down yesterday to post, and with a big gain as well due to nutella and homeade zuccini bread; sausage, velvetta and salsa dip; chicken tenders; and lots of pita chips at Weds book club. Down a little today, even though I had two glasses of wine at book club yesterday.

Stomach not feeling so well today, so Im going to eat light. Also, really congested again..wonder if thats due once again to the change in temp like a few weeks ago-wed was mid 70s and today back in the 90s. Got lots of work to do today, so post will be short. Just wanted to make sure I kept up with documenting my weight and food...its so easy to not do it and then fall off the path of eating right since you can deceive yourself about being good when the evidence is not laid out in front of you. Plan today is to run and swim, though we'll see what my belly thinks about that. Also, summer hours are in effect today, so I have appox 1.5 hours to get 4 hrs of work done...and then Ill be off to run errands.

This weekend, Im going to do yoga tomorrow and maybe check out a few garage sales, and then help my friend by babysitting her kids while she works. Tomorrow night is date night...really looking forward to that! And Sunday will most likely be brunch with the inlaws and lots of needed house cleaning (since our cleaner has been MIA for over 3 weeks now!).

Hope you guys have a great weekend. See you on Monday~

R2P4D14- 0.0

2010-07-14T11:57:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss/Gain 0

Current Weight 142.9
LIW 143.5
Under LIW .6

Food Tracker (choose July 13th)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 10 minute abs, 40 minutes spin bike (light workout)

Yesterday wasnt a bad a night as I thought it would be. I down about 16oz of diet mountain dew around noon knowing that that much caffeine (since I rarely have any lately) would keep me up easily until 1am, and I was right. My coaching sessions went well, and I even did an ab workout during my 1/2 hr break at 10pm (to keep me wide awake).

Even steven this morning with my weight, and considering I consumed about 1700 calories yesterday, and included chocolate in the mix twice!, I am happy with that. This morning I had a cup of chocolate granola (a whopping 520 calories and some dried figs, and am looking forward to some chorizo on the grilled and roasted brussel sprouts for dinner. And for dinner, I am going to eat at Book Club...what a rare treat. Normally I try to eat before I go to avoid temptation, and so I can finish all my food intake before 8pm, but I am going to moderate my eating, and let myself enjoy whatever I want within limits. I feel free, and hope my body agrees with me tomorrow. Since its book club again tomorrow night...

Just did a grueling workout...1/2 hour pilates, 50 minutes yoga, and then 40 minutes on the treadmill (3.5miles). I am tired, good tired, and not hungry at all. Though I definitely need to go stretch.

Hope you guys have a wonderful day today...as well as BIG LOSSES! And dont forget to watch the summer premiere of Pysch on USA at 10pm EST (love that show!).

R2P4D13- 2.4 loss

2010-07-13T17:17:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3

Daily Loss 2.4

Current Weight 142.9
LIW 143.5
Under LIW .6

Food Tracker: Steak day and tomato

Exercise Tracker: 3.8 mile run/walk

Though I wasnt mandated to do a steak day yesterday, as I was only 1.8 over LIW, I really wanted to get back to where I was before my lancaster 9.3 gain. So now Im back on track! Yay, under LIW. Good thing, since one of my new goals is to be in the 130s by the time I have my triathlon on August 1st, and to be closer to my goal than not (ie 135 or so) by the time of our North Wildwood, NJ vacation at the end of August. Its so hard for me to lose without HCG, but Im going to do my darnest!

Masters was canceled yesterday thanks to thunderstorms, and Thurs night I have book club, so I need to make sure I get to the pool this week sometime. I am also going to alternate days for riding and running, so today is a ride day. Since its supposed to pour all day, Im sure that will mean Im on my spin bike...and Im going to do some Jillian as well.

Then tonight I need to coach my student clients from 4pm- 12:30am...that is always a rough night. But Ill try to sleep in a little tomorrow (ie no 5:30am wakeup-hubbys going to let me sleep in), especially since tomorrow night is also one of my book clubs...Whew! What a week.

Talk with you tomorrow...

R2P4D12- .9 loss

2010-07-12T09:08:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss .9

Saturday Weight 144.8

Sunday Weight 146.2
Current Weight 145.3
LIW 143.5
Over LIW 1.8
Food Tracker (select Jul 11)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday):

Saturday: 70 minutes yoga

Sunday: .5 mile open water swim, 12 mile bike

What a nice weekend. Though it poured all day on Saturday, I had a nice yoga class in the morning, followed by lots of playtime with the boys during the day, and date night with Hubby in the afternoon. We went to see Eclipse, which was pretty good, and then we had a delicious dinner at a local wine cafe- mixed green salad with goat cheese, aged balsamic vinegar, salami, and EVOO, and then for dessert, a little chocolate and peanut butter ice cream.

Sunday I had a little trouble getting motivated, but finally got myself in gear and drove up to the open water swim clinic that started at 8am. I was very nervous, as I haven't been swimming as good at Masters since Ive lost the weight-cant seem to find my balance point as well, and I dont float as much ;)-so I thought it would be difficult to swim without my trusty wetsuit (which buoys you up so that you dont need to kick your legs). I was pleasantly surprised that I did ok. I wasnt very fast, but I was consistent, and was able to finish the 1/2 mile without issue or getting tired, despite the fact that I did my bike ride before swimming. And the water was so nice and warm.

After burning all those calories in the morning, the family headed over to a cafe that serves organic and locally sourced food (the Down to Earth Cafe in Perkasie if any of you are near me)...and it was SO GOOD! I shared a veggie panini and a roast beef club sandwich with my MIL, with a salad, and some cookies (and a couple of bites of turtle cupcake, which was warm and tasty like a snickers bar). I ate just a little for dinner, since I was so full and satisfied from lunch, and finished reading my book club book in a hot bath.

The book is called The Last Lecture, and lots of stuff came up for me when I was reading it. Its about a man dying of pancreatic cancer that wants to leave a legacy for his children, and does so by creating/giving a talk that details all of the lessons he has learned throughout his life, and the experiences that have guided him to be the man he was. It was a way for him to let his kids know what kind of man he was, what was important to him, what he wanted to teach them, and how much he loved them.

It brought up so many issues for me as a parent and a wife. What do I want my kids to remember me for, what do I want to teach them, what would I do if I only had 6 months to live? Would I care about the size of my waist-definitely not. Would I yell when something spills-probably not. I would give more hugs, take myself and my kids less seriously, share my love with my family, friends and strangers alike, travel with my family (yes, honey, if I had to, I would guilt you into it), leave letters and create lasting memories and take lots of pictures for my boys to look at when I am gone.

It made me think about doing those things now...who knows how much time any of us have left...so why dont we live a little more and stop getting so bogged down in the minutiae a little less. And I want to really get clear about the lessons I want to teach my kids, the messages I want them to take to heart, to embody, since I fear I am not acting in a way that shows them how much I love and respect them and want the best for them, whomever they are, their likes and dislikes, their dreams and aspirations. We all know that actions speak so much more than words.

I run an autopilot most of the time, in that, when I am in the moment, I just react, instead of stopping myself and thinking about how my reaction may negatively affect my boys or my husband, about how what I do and what I say are not congruent. I need to work much harder on that. And there is so much more...

What would you do differently?

R2P4D9- 1.1 loss

2010-07-09T10:43:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3

Daily Loss 1.1

Current Weight 146.1
LIW 143.5
Over LIW 2.6

Food Tracker: Cheese and apple day

Exercise Tracker: 1650 m swimming (45 minutes)

Cheese and apple day with a few brussel sprouts thrown in (since I roasted 5 lbs of them to freeze and eat for next week and I needed to make sure they tasted good). Not as much of a loss as I expected per reports of others doing this type of correction day, but I dont think my belly can handle cheese as well as it used to. I felt bloated and ugh most of the day, and was lucky I talked myself into to going to Masters last night. I followed that by a soak in the jacuzzi at the Y, and then topped it off with an hour of TV before bed.

Found out yesterday that we are NOT expecting, and it is such a relief. Still no TOM, but Im assuming he's lurking out there in the distance, waiting until the least opportune moment to strike. I wore white pants today just to see what would happen ;).

On the agenda for today: running for lunch, cocopops with almond butter for breakfast, brussels with onions, red pepper and garlic with chicken for lunch, and maybe some sausage on the grill for dinner. Yum!

Next week I might do a cleanse. If any of you are interested, let me know and Ill send you some recipes. It will be mostly juices, salads, and oils. We can share our responses and our results-If not next week, I will definitely do one in the Fall, and would love to include you all, my bloggy peeps.

So off to work and then off to the weekend. Have a great one! And thanks for all your support!

R2P4D8- 1.5 down

2010-07-08T13:37:00.000-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3

Daily Loss 1.5

Current Weight 147.3
LIW 143.5
Over LIW 3.8

Food Tracker: Chicken (7 oz), Cheese (2 oz), Nuts (2 oz), Strawberries (6), 2 apples, Salad with Braggs Aminos (about 1100 calories)

Exercise Tracker: 3.8 miles running/walking (lots of walking)

Another 1.5 down due to clean eating, and a little less than 5 to go. Worked out again in the staggering heat, though it took me 39 minutes to run 3 miles; it is obvious I walked a little...well, at least a mile of it. But not bad, since I did over 3.5...

Hoping to get on my bike today, but I'm feeling little like I dont want to do anything. Case in point, Im doing a cheese apple day today, but Ive only had one apple so far since I haven't gotten off my butt yet to go to the store to buy the apples. I might go to Masters Swim tonight, and maybe ride my spin bike later? Not sure whats holding me back from riding my road bike, but whatever it is, I better figure it out soon-SheRox Philly is on August 1st!

Got any big goals this summer?

R2P4D7- 3.1 loss

2010-07-07T09:17:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3

Daily Loss 1.1+2

Current Weight 148.8
LIW 143.5
Over LIW 5.3

Exercise Tracker: 3.6 miles running/walking, little ab work and pushups

So down 3.1. Hard to believe I could gain so much in two days, and then it will take me a week to lose it all. I lost 1.1 just after going to the bathroom yesterday around 11am...and then another 2 overnight thanks to the steak day. I was going to do a cheese and apple day today, but all the comments I read (thanks girls!) and guides I consulted said to do a clean eating P3 day today and then another correction day tomorrow...so cheese and apples will be on the agenda for tomorrow.

Yesterday, my workout was TOUGH. It is so hard to run in 100 degree weather. My muscles were warmed up really fast, but my lungs burned from the heat. And I tend not to run with water, so I needed to stop three times during my run to grab some from a water fountain. And today, since Im in the office, and I have to pick up my boys afterwards and wont have time to go to the gym, the plan is to do the same today at lunchtime today (but maybe it'll only be 97 degrees). Can anyone say glutton for punishment?

I like feeling strong, so thats what its about for me. A month ago I couldnt run a mile, and now Im starting to like running. Im not fast, but my body responds well after it is warmed up. I can sing or talk when Im running, meaning it no longer gets me out of breath. And the endorphin rush is addictive. Who would've thought? Last year, I was in pain when I ran due to neuromas in my feet and IT band syndrome. And now that the weight is gone(and Ive gotten a better fitting shoe), so are those ailments. I still have some knee pain when Im running, but I make sure to ice them when Im done, and take breaks if I need to. And Im hopeful that Ill be making a PR at my tri in 3 weeks (holy crap, is it only 3 weeks away?...better get on my bike and get training!!!!).

Happy Hump Day...have a wonderful one!

R2P4D6- 9.3lb gain

2010-07-06T10:30:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Saturday Weight 142.6

Current Weight 151.9
LIW 143.5
Over LIW 8.4

Exercise Tracker:

Saturday, None

Sunday: 4 miles running

Monday: 4 miles running, little ab work and pushups

Yes, you did read the gain information correctly. I gained 9.3 lbs since Saturday. WOW! That is monumental, astonishing, and staggering. Yes, I did eat whatever I liked while we were on vacation, though that also meant when it was really hot on Sunday at lunchtime, I had only an apple and some nuts. Yes, I did go to smorgesboards twice over the weekend. And yes, I indulged in dessert. And yes, I know that some of that has got to be water. But Holey Moley, Batman, almost 10 lbs!!!!! I know this is going to take a while to come off. I am actually back into Overweight BMI range, and am so disappointed in myself and my body.

I am going to need to own up to the fact that I can't eat sweets, not even in moderation, because it sets me up on this crazy spiral. I am an addict and even small amounts can set me off. That is very depressing. As we speak, there are amish made oatmeal raisin cookies, frosted cinnamon rolls, and some homeade apple pie on the counter. All of which Hubby will need to take to work for his coworkers to enjoy instead of me. Or maybe Ill just freeze them until I get low enough weight wise to be able to indulge a little.

We were in Under Armour at the outlets yesterday, and some of the things I thought would fit were way too tight...now I know why, right? So steak day today, and I hope it isnt too late to get that at least 2lb drop (since I should have done it yesterday)...and then maybe cheese and apple day tomorrow? And TOM still hasnt made an appearance, which makes it almost 6 weeks late...maybe a trip to the pharmacy for a test as well-though if I was pregnant, that would really be a miracle baby, considering my one fallopian tube, and my hubby's V. And I have no symptoms, so I still really doubt it...

If there is no baby in my belly, Im going to work hard, and fingers crossed this weight comes off in the next week. And I will be starting a new weight loss program once Im back to my LIW based on behavior and thought modification. It will be a lot of work, but no injections and I can still exercise, so Ill see if I can make it work for me. Otherwise, R3 will start this fall.

On a brighter note, I ran almost 4 miles Sunday and Monday mornings. The hotel we stayed at had a jogging path that was gorgeous-it was on the outside of the golf course, and surrounded by farmland. I loved it, and I actually loved the running part of it too. What is better than Coldplay on the stereo, at mile 3, watching a horse and buggy go by in front of a lovely farm under a beautiful fluffy cloud filled sky, feeling like I could run forever? Not much...

And the funniest part of the weekend: Hubby and I forgot to bring the bag that contained all the extra diapers that our sons needed, and thus we made a run to Walmart on the way back from a lovely dinner (just us) on Saturday night. We got there and the parking lot was packed...at 10:00pm. We were confused, but figured maybe they used the lot for something else. So we went about our shopping and when we got to the checkout line we were amazed. The lines were 10-20 people deep, and there were at least 10 lines open. WTH? It took us over 20 minutes to check out in the 20 items or less line. And to think, we weren't even sure Walmart would be open at that time of night. Those people really know how to party!

It was a wonderful weekend, and I am now getting back on track. Thanks to hubby's parents for coming, we really loved having you with us! Hope everyone else had a great holiday weekend as well!

R2P4D2- .8 gain

2010-07-02T11:53:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Gain .8

Current Weight 144.8
LIW 143.5
Over LIW 1.3

Food Tracker (choose July 1st)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 2 bouts of Jillian (1st and 2nd level 30 day shred), 25 minutes light spinning

Succumbed to the evils of Bear Naked Chocolate Granola and Edys Grand Light Chocolate Ice cream yesterday...all due to upset, a 'throw in the towel' attitude and a 'I want to eat this' decision, coupled with mindless eating. I seem to enjoy sabotaging my efforts, and am now bloated and up. Today is a steak day (with a little chicken thrown in for good measure since Im starving). I am also feeling very congested since yesterday and have a nagging headache. Too much sugar, and maybe some new allergen in the air since the weather has been so nice after being so hot for so long, perhaps? And still no TOM. Whats another day when its already a month overdue, right?

I went to yoga early this morning and my congestion got worse, so much so that I decided to skip boot camp and come home. I need to rest up for tomorrow, as we are going away for a few days to Lancaster, Pa. We'll be staying across the street from Dutch Wonderland, a little gem of an amusement park that has a water park inside, so the kids (and I!) wont suffer too much from the forecasted 90 degree weather. We will have a great time.

Im a little nervous though...its the first time since the start of this protocol in January that I will not be weighing myself daily (im intentionally not bringing the scale). I am actually looking forward to not being able to check it, and will hopefully relax a little bit...who knows? Workouts are definitely on the agenda, as are dripping in butter homeade amish pretzels, and my hopes are that I dont come back 5 lbs up.

I hope all of you have an amazing holiday weekend! See you on Tuesday...

R2P4D1- 1.1 gain

2010-07-01T08:12:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Gain 1.3 (1.1 see below)
Current Weight 144
LIW 143.5
Over LIW .5
Food Tracker (june 20th)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 30 Day Shred Video Level 1 Day 3, 45 minute slow walk pushing both boys in stroller

I will never figure this weight loss thing out. I ate about 1200 calories yesterday, only did that 20 minute video and went for a short walk, and then I gained 1.3lbs today (1.1 after second bathroom break). And I wasnt eating crap, either: venison chili (homeade), brussels with olive oil, some nuts, a little bread, lots of kohlrabi and red peppers. WTH?

So, even though I know it shouldnt concern me, Im upset. I cant seem to lose weight without doing the protocol. And that annoys me. Our bodies are amazing, mine should be able to adapt to other ways of losing weight too. One thing I havent told you though, TOM hasnt made an appearance since P2. He was expected over a month ago, and no show. I dont have any symptoms of PMS or pregnancy, and if you remember, Hubby had Vday back on Mothers Day weekend. So Im not really worried about having another little ball of joy (especially since then Id at least get my boobs back), Im more worried about what stress my body is still feeling that it doesnt want to release its juices (too graphic? sorry!). And that when it decides to, it may be a most inopportune time. And my belly is definitely not flat right now. Maybe Im starting to build a little muscle and its pushing all the fat out? How attractive. TOM would be welcome right now, so I can blame this whole thing on him...

I really dont want to do another round in the summer-there is too much going on with parties and temptations, and then also training for my tris. So I will need to wait this out and try to be happy exactly where I am, as I keep reminding myself and reading books about and all that.

The next time I get a wish, instead of world peace, maybe I'll wish for self love and acceptance without consideration or deliberation. I think for most of us, that would be harder to achieve than world peace...what do you think?

R2P3D31- .6 loss

2010-06-30T08:49:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss .6

Yesterdays weight 143.5
Current Weight 142.9
LIW 143.5
Under LIW .6
Food Tracker (choose June 29th)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 30 Day Shred Video (20 minutes mixed cardio/strength/abs)

Met my new team during a meeting in NJ yesterday, and they all seem really great. They took us out to lunch and I had a wonderful meal: mixed green salad with balsamic and vine tomatoes, goat cheese stuffed chicken breast with spinach and asparagus, and for dessert, these to die for cinnamon chocolate chip cannolis, little cookies, cream puffs, and brownie bites (all of which I had little bites of, and then more big bites of the cannolis-equaling 2.5 small ones). Lunch was about 1000 calories, but I made sure to eat a very light dinner, so no gain today. Thats what I like.

Its getting harder and harder to resist the sweet stuff now that Im fully in maintenance...I guess I should switch to P4 up there, huh? Its so much easier to eat from our limited P2 menu instead of having so many tempting choices, and I wonder why I dont put myself back there, since I know how to do it? I think next week Ill put myself on P2 for three days (allowing for me to mix veggies, though), upping my portions, definitely, to equal at least 1000 calories a day, and see if that makes me drop.

I got my bike tuned up, finally (actually its borrowed from a friend), and went out on it for a few minutes this morning. The brakes are a little squeaky and the gears seem to be sticking, but other than that its in good shape. Ill take it out around a local lake bike path later this afternoon...because I wasnt in the mood to ride this morning. Fight with hubby last night that has extended to this morning.

Gonna run and do the shred video now before my 9:30 meeting. Hopefully my next post wont be as boring...

R2P3D29- 1.3 loss

2010-06-28T08:51:00.000-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss 1.3

Saturday weight 142.4

Sunday weight 144
Current Weight 142.6
LIW 143.5
Under LIW .9
Food Tracker (pick June 27th)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 1 hour walk with hubby and kids

30 Day shred Level 1 Day 1 Complete! Have a training this morning, and its really hot outside so I don't really want to run, so once all the kiddies and hubby left for their days, I popped in the DVD, ready to finally finish the 1st level. Gotta admit that 1st set of exercises kicked my butt (jump rope, pushups), but the second two sets were pretty easy. Once I get the 1st set down pat, I think Ill push on and see how tough the second level is. What a difference not running before the video makes ;).

Anyone know how many cals that 20 minutes is supposed to burn? Im trying to put it in SparkPeople, but only found one of their videos comparable so Im guessing 130 calories?

This weekend was HOT! We had a good time though. Took my biggest with his friend to see Toy Story 3 on Sat, and we all loved it. Then Hubby and I went for out for our usual Saturday day night to our favorite restaurant (1st time Ive been back since R1P4 in March), and dined on delicious food, and then ice cream for dessert. Yesterday, since I was up 1.5 I decided to do a steak day, that morphed into a nut day, and then three hamburgers at a birthday party with tomatoes on the side and a piece of sausage day. A little weird, and not as much loss as a traditional steak day, but it worked ok. Im still shooting for the holy grail of below 140, and ultimately 130 or below, but for now, I look and feel good, and thats the important thing. I just wish this heat wave would go away. That reminds me, need to go water the plants before my meeting.

Have a great day!

Pic at 143 lbs

2010-06-27T21:37:00.002-04:00

Just after yoga this past Sat morning...

R2P3D26- .6 loss

2010-06-25T11:56:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss .6
Current Weight 143.1
LIW 143.5
Under LIW .4
Food Tracker (choose June 24th)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 40 minutes swimming (1300 m)

Working summer hours today so leaving in 7 minutes to run lots of errands before the start of the weekend, one of which is picking up doggie prozac for my Samantha. Too much anxiety, poor girl. More on that later.

Had a piece of ice cream cake again yesterday (stand alone, not at a meal) and still lost today. I think food combining may be an issue for gain with me. Ill have to test that theory. Either way, Im back under LIW, and hopefully still on the downward slope. I want to see that 140 again soon, and then even lower.

What about you...what are your short term goals for your weight and health? Would love to hear an update.

R2P3D25- .7 loss

2010-06-24T09:17:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss .7

Current Weight 143.7
LIW 143.5
Over LIW .2
Food Tracker (pick June 23rd)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 3 mile walk/run, 13min/ml pace
(it was hot!)

So I ate a piece of the mint chocolate chip cake that a friend brought over for Hubby's party yesterday. It was vanilla and mint chocolate ice cream loviness with chocolate syrup and a graham cracker crust. Heaven on a fork (since it was pretty frozen). I ate pretty well the rest of the day, and I really wanted a piece, so I had it, and two other sweets for the day, and really enjoyed every bite.

And today Im not craving it, even though its just sitting there minding its own business in the freezer. Well, lets not think about that. Today for lunch I have a cheese and bean burrito from Whole Foods, and for breakfast I had an apple with almond butter. Yummy. I also have some pulled pork in the frig, some more brussel sprouts, a salad with lots of veggies and goat cheese, and some hummus. Lots of good choices to eat today. And I want to fit in a swim sometime, despite the thunderstorms that are supposed to creep up this afternoon/evening (and for which our Y pool closes at the first hint of thunder or lightning). Im going to give my legs a break from running today, I think...

Today is Hubby's actual birthday, and he doesnt want to do anything. I got him a few kitchen must haves for a present (things he wants that I wont mention til tomorrow in case he is reading). I bought myself a present as well: a Ken Onion Shun knife set from woot.com that is gorgeous and I cant wait to try today. The knives are supposed to be world class, extremely sharp, lifetime warranty...they are sold at William's Sonoma and other high end kitchen stores. I have wanted one of those knives for a while now, but each one is between $100 and $300, and I couldnt really justify the purchase. But now that Im seeing clients again this year, and can write the purchase off as a business expense under the guise of needing them for cooking classes, and because they were almost 1/2 price, I decided to get them. And now hubby and I can both enjoy them. I will actually be able to cut a tomato or a pepper without having to slice each section a million times. Yay! Small pleasures...so wonderful.

Off to the vet for a routine doggy check...have an amazing joy filled day.

R2P3D24- .2 loss

2010-06-23T09:16:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss .2

Current Weight 144.4
LIW 143.5
Over LIW .9
Food Tracker (pick June 22nd, though not completely filled in)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 3.3 miles running at 12:30pace

Still so exhausted, another bedtime before 8pm last night. This morning I felt refreshed, though, so I think Im finally catching up. Ran in the heat again yesterday, but my legs were tired, so I walked a few blocks more than the day before. Tried to donate blood, but 1) my HGB was too low (12.3 and rechecked 11.9-have to be 12.5 to donate), and I don't qualify to donate double red cells anymore since Im under 150lbs. That was so funny! The last time I donated was in October before my HCG journey, and it obviously wasnt an issue then, so they probably didnt even mention it to me. All that extra water consumption for naught...

Today Im hoping it wont be too hot to exercise at lunch. Its supposed to be in the mid 90's and that might be a little much for me, though at least my muscles would be easily warmed up. Yesterday I finally broke out the Jillian 30 Day Shred video, but quit after 15 minutes because the intro was so long and I had to leave for an appointment. Im going to try again tomorrow (since Im in the office today)....are any of you guys doing it? Do you like it? I couldnt do it all (the 15 minutes, I mean) since I had just come back from my run and was really tired.

Enjoy yourself today, ladies! Its going to be a beautiful day...

R2P3D23- 1.1 loss

2010-06-22T10:20:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss 1.1

Current Weight 144.7
LIW 143.5
Over LIW 1.2

Exercise Tracker: 4.16 miles jogging at 11:16 min/mil pace

Still totally exhausted from the weekend. Planned on going to Masters Swim last night but fell asleep before 8pm and woke up at 6am. Today I am busying doing training for my new position, and I also plan to run at lunch, if my belly starts feeling a little better, that is...it seems to be annoyed at me for consuming 2oz of nuts and succumbing to the 16oz monster Diet Mountain Dew this morning. I dont do well with aspartame, but I seem to fall privy to its charms every so often (hubby is going to have to start hiding it again).

Later I will have a lovely massage and donate lots of double red cells-it is much better to donate those since they can use everything in its donated state, even though the donation takes an hour instead of the normal 20 minutes and you cant donate again for 3 months. I urge you to donate if you can, esp O neg peeps.

Little disappointed about only losing 1.1 from my steak day (since I lost 3 the last time), but I guess the protocol is right...you have to do it exactly the day after, or the affect is greatly minimized. I just hope this extra 4.7lbs come off this week...Im going to refer to my correction days ebook to see if there is anything in there I can try. Originally I thought a nut day would work today, but not if my belly isnt going to cooperate. So maybe Ill do that tomorrow...

And just to let you know, no dishes or the dishwasher was harmed in my mad dash to clean for the party. All of the dishes are now residing in their proper place (yes, the drying rack), and the box in the basement has been inventoried and emptied. MGM, I definitely would have used the dishwasher as a store all, but it didnt have enough room ;)! I did find a few pens in there though !?!>!?!>!>!?!?!?

Heres hoping your day contains lots of good and interesting surprises...like maybe Ill finally get a chance to read your post today! Love to you all...

R2P3D22-1.8 gain

2010-06-21T10:58:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Gain 1.8

Sunday Gain 4.0

Saturday loss 2.0
Current Weight 145.8
LIW 143.5
Over LIW 2.3

Exercise Tracker:

Friday: working out in garden 2 hours, lots of housework

Saturday: running around getting everything ready for Hubby's surpise birthday party

Sunday: cleaning up after said party

So I threw my husband a surprise birthday party on Saturday night, and somehow I actually pulled it off. It was so hard not to post all of the trials I had while planning it and keeping it a secret (hiding the party food, making up a visit from a distant friend, not telling my oldest, getting the help of friends to store beer, pick up ice and food trays, etc). It was exhausting. But he was so surprised, and every one seemed to have a great time.

Friday was spent trying to attend to the last minute details and making sure the landscaping out front and back was done. I had a beautiful rock garden done in the front, and we ran out of rocks, so I had to climb under bushes in the side yard to get more out of hiding (why put rocks under bushed where they cant be seen, I wonder of the old house owners?). I was so busy, I forgot to eat, and ended up only consuming about 5oz of mixed nuts throughout the day followed by ham steak covered in horseradish cheddar dip for dinner. And I lost 2 lbs! I got down to 140 on Sat (unchartered territory). Wow.

Saturday was crazy...I had my in laws pick up the kids 5 minutes after Hubby left for work (8am), and went crazy getting all the furniture, food, etc out. At 2pm, when everyone starting arriving, I had NO food made, had just finished throwing all the dishes in the dishwasher-on top of clean dishes already in there-and I took a box and threw everything still on the coffee table and on the counter in it, with no regards to what is was (mixed nuts, gift cards, a shoe, books, and paints were some of the contents). Some of my friends volunteered to help, and I readily accepted. By 2:25, some of the food was cooked, the tent was up, the lights outside had batteries, Mark was on his way, and I was happily enjoying my first drink. Gotta love it.

The best part of the whole weekend was that I didn't throw any tantrums, didn't get completely mentally overwhelmed like I normally do before parties, and I didn't dwell (much) on the things I forgot to do, or didn't have time to do, such as putting up the happy birthday banner I made (for all the guests to sign and give to Hubby as a gift)-AND the second best thing was that my hubby knows how much he is loved.

Now I have to figure out what to do with myself. This whole party has so consumed me that I feel a little lost not having to plan or pick up anything up. Though I guess I still have a lot of stuff to return still, and the basement shelving needs to be put back in order, and I still have to see what, if anything, lays broken shoved at the bottom of the dishwasher. And I start my new position today and have lots of training to do, and information to absorb...in addition to losing that 5.8lbs I gained over the weekend.

I'm up 2.3 over LIW, the highest Ive been in all of P3 (which is why I doing extra P3 days this round). I really should've have done a steak day yesterday with that 4lb gain, but darn those leftovers were SO tempting (and I was still only .5 over LIW-dont you love my excuses?). I know Im going to be tempted once Im off protocol (I guess that will be starting this week) and going into lifetime maintenence, so Im grateful I have the tools to get me down quickly. And I know too that my plan is to weigh only weekly, and have one day a week when I can let loose...so this is ok. This gain is only temporary. I'm going to run and swim today in addition to eating lots of steak. And tomorrow I have a massage scheduled and will do high protein, high fat, and no carbs...in addition to donating blood (that should get me down, right?). So Im not worried. I want this great new body to stay that way, and Ill work hard to achieve it, while not driving myself too crazy.

Now that Im down, the mental work I will start doing will keep me here. And get me that 15-2o more lbs down that I want to be.

How about you....any big plans for the week?

R2P3D19-.6 loss

2010-06-18T09:24:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss .6

Yesterday's Loss .7

Current Weight 142

LIW 143.5
Under LIW 1.5
Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 47

Exercise Tracker: 40 minutes swimming

Sorry for the missed post yesterday, catching up on some much needed sleep. Been pretty stressful at work since Wednesday- I found out that the position I accepted (doing only data review which is so boring for the next 1.5 yrs), the one that was going to allow me to work at home 5 days instead of my current 3 days- is not going to allow it for the forseeable future (they said at least 3 months). So my disappointment and frustration are palpable (fun word, huh?). For the first time in a long time, I was so upset I literally didnt know what to do. It was raining out, I was in the office, and I didnt want to go shopping or go stress eat. I thought I couldnt go workout due to the rain, and then a friend reminded me of the covered parking garage. So I ran there. The scenery was pretty horrendous, as was the cigarette smoke plume every time I ran a lap, but it was so needed. During that time, I reminded myself of my prosperity, I have a job, it allows me to work from home 3 days, allows me to have the family time I need, allows me the income to pursue my other interests. And I felt better. And I gave myself credit, for sticking up for myself in a meeting and saying exactly how I felt (despite the fact that the woman I spoke with now looks at me funny and avoids me in the hall), and knowing that in the long run, my saying how I felt wouldn't change things for the better, and might in fact hinder my creditability and perception of my work ethic. So I need to keep looking at the jobs as a means to an end, and if it becomes unbearable, then I'll leave. At least, after I finished paying for the bathroom remodel that I have planned ;).

Yesterday was a much better day, especially since I was not in the office. I got all my work done, tidied up the house, and got ready for the weekend. Today, I woke up early, and my biggest and I did a loop around the park-him in the jogging stroller-for a 4 mile walk. Felt good, and Im glad to have it out of the way, especially since its supposed to be so hot out starting today. I start my new position on Monday, so today Ill spend tying up all the loose ends on my current studies.

And the landscaper is on the way to put in some hydrangeas...yay, curb appeal! I did decide to wait on the front walkway...too many options and I cant decide what exactly I want. Once my life is a little less stressful Ill start planning again. And reading the Beck Diet Solution, and the rest of the 4 day win, and ...on and on...

Ladies (and my gent), I hope this Fathers Day weekend is a wonderful weekend for you. And I promise to start looking back into the blogroll again soon...darn blocking on my computer!

R2P3D17- .2 gain

2010-06-16T09:56:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Gain .2

Current Weight 143.3

LIW 143.5
Under LIW .2
Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 45.7

Food Tracker (choose June 15th)
Exercise Tracker: 45 minute walk run (average 14min mile pace) with my biggest in the jogging stroller

Functioning on 5 hours of sleep today, IM SO TIRED. Went to bed at 1am after coaching 7 hours and working a full day (8 hrs). Then my littlest decides to get up at 6am this morning, and my hubby was already out the door to work out so I had to get him. I will definitely need an early bedtime tonight.

My lunch plan is to run/walk if the weather cooperates...I hope it wakes me up a little.

And I hope you guys have a great day today...

R2P3D16- 1.3 gain

2010-06-15T13:25:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Gain 1.3

Current Weight 143.1

LIW 143.5
Under LIW .4
Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 45.9

Food Tracker (choose June 14th)
Exercise Tracker: 45 minute walk run (average 14min mile pace) with my biggest in the jogging stroller

Gained after I ate one of those skinny cow ice cream cookie sandwiches...though Im not saying thats the only culprit. My body seems to like this weight. I just hope when I start trying to lose again in P4 that it doesnt keep staying here...I want to see the 130s sometime REAL soon.

I was SO tired at Masters swim yesterday, not sure why. Today I felt really good working out, but it seemed way too short. Looks like Im getting addicted to the heavy workout adrenaline rush.

Roof is fixed, yay! And may get a new stone paver walkway put in starting tomorrow (surprise Honey!). Just have to pick the pavers color, slale grey (which weathers to a cool blue) or red harvest. Im going to have to ask Hubby to pick a color, I bet...

Happy Tuesday, everyone. Here's hoping you get more sleep than I get tonight!

R2P3D15- 2.9 Loss

2010-06-14T19:34:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss 2.9 (from Steak Day-wow!)

Current Weight 141.8

Saturday gain .4

Sunday gain 2.5
LIW 143.5
Under LIW 1.7
Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 47.2

Food Tracker (choose June 13th)
Exercise Tracker:

Saturday 40 minute walking 4.1 mil/hr pace

Sunday: 25 minute walking 4.0 mil/hr pace, 10 minutes biking

So this weekend was busy, but so fun. Date night with my hubby on Friday was FABULOUS! We went to a great restaurant, had veggies that were SO good, we actually ordered more of them, enjoyed two delicious bottles of wine between us, saw a great fireworks show, enjoyed a scoop of chocolate ice cream, and met this really cool woman who also does tris and runs a LIFE is GOOD shop in town. Best thing was actually only gaining .4 on Saturday even though I had ice cream and wine (and a huge workout). Saturday I hit some garage sales, and ended up getting a ton of great clothes really cheap.

The pig roast that we went to Saturday afternoon was AMAZING. There was a full pig and all the trimmings, a full bar, two kegs, tons of alcohol, tons of desserts, veggies, a moon bounce with slide, trampoline and playset for the kids, and such great people. I had so much fun that I kept my littlest up 2 hrs past his bedtime. And hubby didnt get back with my biggest (who normally goes to bed at 8pm) until Midnight! I ate a ton that day, and enjoyed almost every bite (except when I was around this old guy that kept commenting on how much I was eating...I didnt like him :)-. I ate so much that I felt sick to my stomach (I think it was the alcohol I mixed actually-wine then strawberry daqauri-then wine, not a good combo), but I kept everything down. And I drank water the rest of the night.

Today was my son's last day at school. He starts camp next Monday, so my inlaws are going to help with him this week so I can get tons of things done for work. I start my new position next Monday, and Im really looking forward to it. Havent had time to review any of the Beck Diet Solution, so Ill comment more on that next week. Im off to Masters in a few minutes (that is if my stomach starts feeling better, I had some strawberries just now, and they are not sitting really well in my stomach.

Hope everyone had a great weekend, and see you tomorrow!

R2P3D12- .7 loss

2010-06-11T08:30:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss .7

Current Weight 142.6
LIW 143.5
Under LIW .9
Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 46.6

Food Tracker (choose June 10th)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 45 minutes running, 11 min/mile pace, 15 minutes walking (YES, I RAN 4 MILES!!!!)

Boy was yesterday busy. Worked in the office, ran at lunch, left work, stopped at Target to pick up a few things, picked up my biggest from the inlaws on the way home, got home, wrapped biggest's teachers presents for his graduation today, made dinner for hubby, ran out the door to drop biggest at the gym with hubby, off to the food distribution volunteer gig, left that at 7:45, off to the produce mart to get fruit for the tray I need to make for the graduation, and then off to book club immediately after. By 10:45pm, when I got home, I was exhausted!!!!! And still am, for that matter.

But the fruit tray is made, all men and boys have left the building, and Im breathing a little easier, despite the fact that today's schedule looks much like yesterday's. And can you believe that I ran so far yesterday? I couldn't. I just told myself a little longer, a little longer, to that street light, etc...its funny, but I need a good 5 minutes of walking to stretch out before my legs will even think of running, and then after that they seem to cooperate and do what my mind tells them. When I was finished, I was bright red for the next 1/2 hour, but I felt really great. I wonder if Im going to keep this up?

Last night at Book Club, I had two small glasses of wine and some strawberries, and I was so full. That running made me full all day (ok, maybe the guac did it too, that really feels me up!). I think I came in under 1300 calories for the day. I know, however, that I will probably have lots more than that tomorrow night and Saturday (pig roast party at a neighbors house). Theres lots of steak in the house for Sunday, if needed.

Had lots of grapes, blueberries and cherries this morning with some almond butter while making the fruit tray. I know, no sugar, but they were yummy, and its all heathy stuff....and thats how Im going to be eating all the time starting in 10 days, so I feel good about it. Tonight Hubby and I are going to try a new restaurant in New Hope, and then watch some fireworks. Im really excited about it, its going to be a great night.

Hope you guys have a great day today! And maybe this weekend do something that exceeds your expectations, or try something you think you can't do if the mood strikes you...you never know what might happen.

R2P3D11- 1.3 gain

2010-06-10T08:53:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Gain 1.3
Current Weight 143.3
LIW 143.5
Under LIW .2
Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 45.9

Food Tracker (choose June 9th)
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 35 minutes running, 11 min/mile pace

I did a 5K yesterday, Yay!, without stopping, Yay!, just because I said why not. I went out for a quick run before lunch because it looked like it was going to rain and I wanted to get outside. But I needed to get back within 40 minutes, so I said to myself, lets just start jogging in the neighborhood and see how it goes. So I looped around my neighborhood (2.2 miles) and then said what the heck, Im feeling ok, and went out into another neighborhood, one with a HUGE hill that I forgot about, and I ran the whole thing. I was so tired afterwards, but I felt like I accomplished so much.

Up today thanks to way too many figs, eating potentially sugar ridden chicken and homeade balsamic vinegar dressing (no packaging left to review), two small glasses of Pinot Grigio, the run, and most likely consuming too many calories too late (1700 for the day, not bad for my BMR (1684), but as I noticed last round that anything over 1500 despite exercise causes a gain). I can't wait until Im weighing just once a week so these daily fluctations dont have me constantly trying to explain them.

Book club was fun as always, and the food was delicious. Thanks Lindsay!!! Today will be highly protein and fat based...roasted chicken, steak, almond butter (2 tbl only), guacamole, and lots of veggies. And tomorrow if Im up again Ill do a steak day. Technically it is not called for since I am under my LIW, but I wanted to see 130 again as soon as P3 is over (next Sunday, the 20th), so Im going to see how I do 2lbs under LIW until then. Got to it a few days ago and that was fun.

Exercise today will be another run at lunchtime (until I get tired...dont need to do that 5K again today), and tonight will be my other bookclub (Still Alice by Lisa Genova- really good) after volunteering at my food club's distribution night. Lots of stuff to do! Tomorrow is my oldest's PreK graduation...can't believe he starts kindergarten in the fall, where does the time go?

Mine is running low now, so off I go...have a wonderful day.

And yes, for BDS, I will sit and eat in my chair today for lunch and dinner after failing to do it for breakfast (1 tbsp almond butter sucked right out of the measuring spoon) and lots of Teavana Chai flavored with Chocolate Stevia (yum!)-just water with the tea, in case you're wondering. And I will finally look into that Day 3 giving myself credit.

Some fun things

2010-06-09T10:50:00.001-04:00

this is a GREAT proposal video...

and a great article about looking great in a bikini (because you do even if you think you dont!).

R2P3D10- .5 gain

2010-06-09T07:54:00.000-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3

Daily Gain .5
Current Weight 142
LIW 143.5
Under LIW 1.5
Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 47.2
Food Tracker
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 2.5hr yoga class; Swim lesson (swam 15 minutes or so)

I ate less than 1000 calories yesterday, and a gain today...wonder if the dried figs have a lot more calories than I think they do? I ended up buying dried turkish figs yesterday instead of the dried california ones (that only have sulfur added) I got the last time since the woman wasn't at the market...and they might? have added sugar...not sure.

Surprisingly not too sore from yesterday's exertions. Today Im going to try to get some exercise outside, even though it is supposed to be cold and rainy the whole day, and then tonight is Book Club. We read the Good Earth by Pearl S. Buck and I really enjoyed it. Good food, good wine, good company, great night!

Eat slowly and mindfully from BDS is on the agenda today, though I scarfed down breakfast and didnt pay any attention. I will intend now to be mindful for the rest of the day.

Got any good plans for Hump Day?

R2P3D9- 1.4 loss

2010-06-08T13:03:00.000-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss 1.4
Current Weight 141.5
LIW 143.5
Under LIW 2
Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 47.7
Food Tracker
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): Run/walk 3.31 miles at 12.18mile pace; 1600m swim (50 minutes)

Down a whopping 1.4, that works for me. And I got the new position-YIPPEE...which will allow me to work from home 100% until December 2011. Another YIPEE!!! Im really excited. Though the work sounds dull, the woman I will be reporting too sounds wonderful, and it will be great to work for sane and nice managers this time around.

Yoga today was resplendant, wonderful, lovely. I had such a wonderful session. And I'm full on both fresh and dried figs. Now all I have left for the day besides work is a swim lesson, picking up my biggest, and a playdate for him this afternoon.
Today's BDS task is to eat slowly and mindfully (and Im going to focus on this one for the next few days I think, so I still need to finish Day 4's giving credit task). Now, I gotta admit, I didnt eat anything but a tablespoon of almond butter before yoga, since it is not good to be digesting in class, so I was a little hungry when I picked up the figs. 6 of the dried ones were in my belly before I knew it. But I was mindful of them going down, they were delicious and gorgeous and also I really enjoyed the fresh figs...it was my first time having one. And now Im full, even though Ive eaten so little up to this point in the day. Ill have lunch a little later when I feel hungry.

Have a wonderful day, my friends!

R2P3D8- 1.1 gain

2010-06-07T09:33:00.002-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Gain 1.1

Current Weight 142.9 (was 141.8 yesterday)
LIW 143.5
Under LIW .6
Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 46.3
Food Tracker
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): Walk 3 miles with both kids in the jogging stroller

Had an oatmeal raisin cookie and some sugar free chocolate yesterday. Yummy, but gained. Hopefully I wont keep going up tomorrow if I go running today.

Really busy week...swimming tonight, swim lesson and long yoga class tomorrow night, book clubs Wed and Thur night, son's pre-k grad Friday, party sat...all definitely fun stuff, all dangerous territory (gain from working out or cheating). I have to make sure I have a plan for everything to keep on track.

Re the BDS, eat sitting down task...thats definitely a hard one when I am on the go. I was able to do it for about 1/2 of the weekend. How about you? Day 4 task's is to give yourself credit. Yay, Kelly, you did the sitting down eating thing 1/2 the time...when I have a little more time to write I will post the rest of this task...but definitely make sure you uys pat yourself on the back, you are doing GREAT!!!!

Interviewing for my new position today (my company contracts my services out, and my current project is ending). Wish me luck!

R2P3D7- .2 loss

2010-06-06T12:30:00.000-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss .2Current Weight 142
LIW 143.5
Under LIW 1.7
Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 47.2
Exercise Tracker (yesterday): Non
Still lots of good fats yesterday...more almond butter, guacamole, cashews and pistacios (nut mix), and goat cheese. And I havent been adding in one thing at a time...just going with what worked for me last P3 and it still seems to be working. High on the fats, definitely. Helped run a garage sale yesterday after I did the rounds of my neighborhood, and actually made more than I spent. Was also happy that I did not gain or lose anything after my lunch at Cheesecake Factory and dinner out with some friends at the Freight House. I definitely ate P3 style, oils, nuts, lots of non startchy veggies and proteins, big salads, and it seems like my body is stabilizing well. I did not work out on Friday or Saturday, but this morning I walked for 3 miles with both kids in the stroller.

Last night I had the most delicious food and wine on my date night. A huge mixed greens salad with goat cheese, salami, aged balsamic vinegar, almonds, grilled onions-heavenly! And three glasses of amazing sangria. I was WASTED! But it was fun. Met some friends after dinner and got home at the reasonable hour of 11pm...I was a little hung over this morning, thats for sure. Its the first time Ive drank since my last round.

Today off to brunch with the inlaws. Have a great Sunday!

R2P3D5- 1.1 loss

2010-06-04T08:51:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3

Daily Loss 1.1

Current Weight 142

LIW 143.5

Under LIW 1.5

Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 47

Food Tracker (click here) and choose 6/3/2010 as the date

Exercise Tracker (yesterday): 1450m swim (40 minutes)

Lots of good fats yesterday...I added in almond butter (no ingredients other than the almonds), guacamole, cashews and pistacios (nut mix), and salmon in addition to my proteins and strawberries. Yesterday was a stressful day, but at least I made good choices (though I had cravings, let me tell you). PMS seems to be rearing its ugly head for the second time in the past two weeks, so Ive been getting set off so easily. I think too that I tend to get a little depression after the HCG is out of my system, at least thats what happened last time and with both of my pregnancies, so my kids and hubby know to stay a little clear, just in case.

Lunch today will be at the Cheesecake Factory, and Im a little nervous. Im going to go online and plan my meal prior to going so I wont be tempted to stray. Im not worried about going full hog for cheesecake, I could take it or leave it, but those darn Buffalo Blasts are addictive and delicious fried goodness. Hubby jokingly (I think?) asked me to bring him home something (ie Buffalo Blasts) and I told him it might be a little too much for me to have them in the house, or on the table at the restaurant, or in the car on the seat next to me... at this time.

For breakfast today I tried a Fage 2% plain yogurt, and wasn't impressed. I added strawberries to it to make it a little more palatable, but maybe its an aquired taste. Also had a fig (and brought more to work to snack on), and a tbl of almond butter on celery (and my finger, yum!). Feeling content and satisfied, and only 177 calories total. Pretty good.

This weekend is going to be fun: our community is hosting a garage sale, and I always get such good deals, and my inlaws are coming over to sell and help my biggest with his lemonade stand (and I think my MIL is just finding this out as she reads this-dont worry, Mom, itll be fun!). Then date night tomorrow night, (I can eat now!!! No more dry steak and romaine for me)! Sunday there is a festival locally, though I cant remember what it is right now, and probably bunch with the family.

Today's task for BDS is to pick two diets to follow. Two in case the first doesnt work. We all know my first one: HCG, and that it works. And my second, that I will follow this summer, is the one my friend is doing and having great results with. I dont know all the details, but it is basically a counting and changing up a calorie system, and she can eat what she likes in moderation, and exercise. And that was my plan for the summer anyway, so it will be nice to have a regimen to fall back on just in case. Im feeling a little limited right now about having to stabilize and not lose anymore for the next three weeks, but I know I need to do it. I have to let go of that 130, or even 125, number right now, and know that my body will get there when its ready after I do a lot more hard work...and I know all the reasons why I want to get there too, thanks to my handy dandy notebook, I mean advantages response card :)...

And I think since I know Day 2's task already, I'll do Day 3 as well, which is eat sitting down (to be more conscious of the food that you are eating). And Im not going to think about the fact that I did not have breakfast sitting down this morning, since I was busy packing my snacks and watching the kids run around...Ill start from right now.

What are your big plans for the weekend? Want to follow the BDS along with me?

R2P3D4- 1.1 gain

2010-06-03T22:02:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3

Daily Gain 1.1

Current Weight 143.1

LIW 143.5

Under LIW .4

Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 45.9

Food Tracker (click here)

Exercise Tracker (yesterday): Run 2 miles (slow pace), walk .9 miles.

Think all the lactic acid buildup in my legs from running two days in a row may have caused the gain, cause I ate clean and under 1500 calories (my BMR is 1684)...my legs were sore today. And I think that contributed to my crappy showing at Masters Swim tonight. I used my pull buoy (which buoys the legs to get more of an arm and back workout) for most of the 1450m I swam.

I also had a ton of gas...all the cheese and oil and fat building up, I guess. TMI for some, huh? Hoping to see a loss tomorrow...would love to be consistently 2 under LIW so when I start the serious workouts I wont go too above LIW.

Stressful day today...too much heat and lots of annoying things happened...like the vitacost order I placed which was to arrive today was damaged in shipping and wont arrive now til Monday...I ordered a ton of stuff for P3, and now I have to wait an extra 4 days to get it. And it took me over 2 hours to get the order rebooked...and the roof is leaking, and the basement has moisture, the vertigo is rearing its ugly head when I work on the computer (and thats a lot) and Im trying to book a vacation to the beach for the family and no one from the rentals are calling me back...oh well, I definitely think TOM is going to make his appearance very soon.

See you all in the morning...lunch with a friend I havent seen in a long time is on the agenda tomorrow , so Im really looking forward to that.

Good night, dearies...

R2P3D3-.9 loss

2010-06-02T09:26:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3

Daily Loss .9
Current Weight 142.0

LIW 143.5

Under LIW 1.5

Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 47

Food Tracker: 16 oz sirloin steak, 2 oz sirlon, 2 large hothouse tomatoes, 1 apple (steak day)

Exercise Tracker: Run 2 miles (slow pace, stopped in between mile 1 and 2 for about 5 minutes), walk 1.3 miles.

Wow, I couldnt believe I ran yesterday. I didnt even plan for it. I was going to do the JM Shred video, even went so far as to move the coffee table over to the couch so I would have room, and then I noticed the storm clouds. Checked weather.com and found out it was supposed to thunderstorm in about an hour, so I decided to go for a quick walk before my shred. And then I was walking for a few minutes, and said what the heck, Im going to run until my legs are tired and see how far I get...and then I went a mile, and was shocked. Walked for a few minutes because there was a HUGE hill and my legs were really tired, and started again at the top. The funniest thing was that I had to drag my dog...she was really tired. She used to run with my hubby all the time but not for a while, and the poor thing is out of shape ;). Stopped at the library on the way home to pick up some books, fully expecting to walk the rest of the way, and then said hey, why not run (or honestly, lets say slow jog, because thats really the truth) again, and ran the rest of the way home (all downhill, yay!) with books and dog in hand. Missed the rain by about 10 minutes. And never found the strength in my legs or the time in the rest of my day's schedule to do the shred. Walking/running on the agenda today since Im in the office, and then onto Shred once again tomorrow (in addition to Masters Swim). I feel pretty good.

Just got the Beck Diet Solution (Judith Beck) from the library based on a recommendation from a SparkPeople friend, and have found it interesting so far. Ill be posting my tasks from that book here, as well as getting back to Martha Beck's Four Day Wins over the next month. There is no way I am going to sabotage the weight Ive lost by going right back to my excuses and poor eating habits.

As always, stick around to catch the highjinks of a clumsy athletic girl who is going to work her body and mind into a weight burning gorgeous well oiled machine with some slips thrown in for good measure...

Beck Diet Solution (BDS) Daily Task #1: Create an Advantages Response Card

Create a card that you can carry with you all times and review when you need it, or at a minimum twice per day. On this card you list all the reasons you want to lose weight.

Here is mine:

I want to release weight so:

I will look so much better
I will feel so much better: sexy, self confident, FREE from compulsion and obsession about my food and my body
I will fit into size 2 and 4's
I will be a MILF
I will be mentally clearer and have better focus and moods since Ill be eating whole unprocessed foods
Ill get to cook more and learn lots of great recipes
Ill spend more time in the kitchen, with my family
I will be able to more clearly recognize my body's needs/signals and meet those needs
I will set a good example/serve as an inspiration for my family, friends, and clients
I will know I can reach any goal/do anything I put my mind to
I wont be embarrassed by the way I look (when running yesterday I noticed this-Im not embarressed to run anymore)
Things wont jiggle so much when Im working out
Ill get lots of good attention
Ill feel in control
I wont need to obsess or worry about my body or FOOD anymore
Ill be able to look and feel great in a bikini
Ill be in the best shape of my life
Ill be able to focus more on the important things in my life: home, family, friendships, love
Ill be less self critical
Ill enjoy my physical relationship with my hubby more
Ill have more energy to play with my kids
Ill be better able to manage my cravings
Ill pamper myself in ways that are not food related
Ill FEEL my feelings instead of stuffing them with food (scary and good)
I wont feel GUILTY! or depressed about how I look
Ill be much easier to work out and do races
Ill be able to teach/coach others to do what I did (mind and body techiniques)
ill be more sucessful in my careers (coaching and otherwise)
Ill have more friends
I will have more creditability in my coaching practice
My kids will be better nourished, and have a better attitude and understanding about healthy food, and food in general (since I wont give them my food obsession)-this is HUGE~

Wow, this was a pretty cool exercise...but boy, do I have lots to read twice a day :)

After doing this, you are supposed to carry the card with you, refer to it as often as you need to when tempted by food cravings, or stressful situations. You can also post it on the frig, the mirror, etc. And set yourself a reminder on your computer or phone to read the card at least once per day at a specific time.

R2P3D2-What a weekend!

2010-06-01T08:50:00.000-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Current Weight 142.9

LIW 143.5

Under LIW .6

Total R2P2 Loss (from loading) 21.8

Sat weight 142.2 (-1.3)

Sun weight 141.3 (-.9)

R2P3D1 Mon weight 141.8 (+.5)

Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 46.1

Food Tracker: What didnt I eat this weekend is a better question! Lots of no-nos that were wonderful...little binging going on, but aware of it, and ok with it.

Exercise Tracker: Only one walk all weekend on Sunday due to the busy weekend, and a lingering vertigo episode.

My last injection of P2 was Friday. It was a difficult decision, since my plan was to wait until after TOM arrived, and perhaps lose another 3 or 4 lbs before the end of the round, but I was fed up with my slow losses, and know that I made the right decision. And the funny thing is that TOM has still not arrived! No, Im not worried, this happened at the end of R1P2 as well. Friday I ate my normal 500 calories.

Saturday I made a modified steak day, since I knew I would be doing my garage sales all day and probably wouldnt be around until 2 or 3. I did have a mini soft pretzel in the morning, and apple for lunch, and then for date night my standard eight ounce steak with a tomato. I also had a piece of flatbread pizza and a bite of hummus off my hubby's plate. Very delicious. That was after hubby took me to see Sex and the City 2, which I LOVED. It was fabulous. After dinner, we parted ways, him to watch hockey with the boys, and me to have a bath and a cup of tea before bed. It was a great night (and about 750 calories for the day).

Sunday we went out for lunch with my in-laws to Lambertville, NJ (about 20 minutes from our house, an arty/antique town right on the deleware river), after I cooked all the greens that I got from my local food buying club:

I made collard greens with carmelized onions and bacon (delicious!!!!), as well as a mix of tat soi (chinese green), collards, kale, and swiss chard with almond flakes, carmelized onions and minced garlic. I ate a ton of the collards with bacon for breakfast on Sunday, (even though I knew the bacon had a little sugar), so I wasn't too hungry at lunchtime and only ate a little of my chicken with romaine at lunchtime. Plus a few sips of my hubby's margarita, and a few kettle cooked chips. After lunch we walked over to the ice cream shop and I shared a cup of rainbow sherbet and chocolate ice cream with my biggest-always room for ice cream. And yes, I know you're thinking, Kelly, no sugar no starch for three weeks, remember. But Sunday and Monday I treated like I was not on any diet, ate what I wanted, and then planned to do a steak day today to make up for it. I was so full after all that food, that I only had a few bites of leftover steak for dinner-no more than an ounce-and a few cups of tea at the end of the night (total for day, about 900 calories).

Yesterday, we BBQd for lunch-Hot Italian Bison Sausage with Corn on the Cob, Chicken marinated in Braggs and Sea Salt, and a huge salad filled with four types of sweet peppers, cucumbers, hothouse tomatoes, and garden fresh romaine with baby greens. And I tried the WF Thousand Island Dressing with it. I really liked it. I also had lots of fresh strawberries, yum! Later in the afternoon we went to a friends house, and I feasted on grilled sweet potatoes marinated in olive oil and scallions, and another big salad of mixed greens, grape tomatoes and softened goat cheese! For dessert (get ready to be shocked and appalled), I had one chocolate chip cookies, a piece of eclair pie, two big pieces of yellow cake with whipped cream and strawberries, two oatmeal raisin cookies, and two decorated shortbread cookies. A little much, but I couldnt stop eating them (probably about 2000 calories for the day, though it was day 1 of P3). It was a well deserved 1.5 lbs gained this morning (I weighed myself again after my trip to the bathroom, so it only says 1.1 lbs above). And today, Im back on track, and feeling satisfied and happy. And I had such a great time with my family all weekend. What a way to start the summer, and the rest of my weight release journey. Though I want to lose another 18lbs, Im not planning on doing another round this yr unless I cant lose those eighteen by September through my working out and eating well. If not, Ill do one final round in October, after all my tri training is finished, and in time to finish so I can enjoy Thanksgiving...and no more long rounds for me. Short and sweet the rest of the way...

How was your Memorial Day weekend?

ps...Today, Im starting my exercise regime that will carry me through the three triathlons I plan to do (first one is August 1st!). I may try to start the Cto5K depending on how hot it is, and I plan to try Day 1 of the 30 Day Shred that I have read so many of you have tried and hated, but got great results. So wish me luck!

pss...Im going to take my remaining HCG and fill my syringes with it (about two weeks worth). Then Ill wrap them in aluminum foil and freeze them for use during an upcoming round.

psss.. Helederheid, 30 inches is perfect. Im 5'5" so that would be great, if you were serious that is....contact me via email and we can discuss the logistics-THANKS!

Kelly Scotti

Certified Holistic Health Counselor, AADP

Founder and Director, Flying Dragon Wellness

www.flyingdragonwellness.com

www.mymomtris.com

Inspiring people to deliciously nourish their bodies and minds.

R2P2D43-VLCD D41-0 loss

2010-05-28T09:04:00.001-04:00

R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
Daily Loss +/_0

Current Weight 143.5

R2P2 Loss to Date 21.8

LIW R1P2 159.4
Under LIW 15.9
Total Loss to date from R1 Start: 45.5

Food Tracker: Sirloin Steak with WF BBQ sauce, 1 oz burger, 2 plum tomatoes, Fried Chicken breast with asparagus, strawberries with WF chocolate sauce, 3 melba toasts, 3 pieces SPRY gum, 2 cups Everyday Detox Tea, 3 mac nuts

Exercise Tracker: None, thanks to thunderstorms (masters swim was supposed to be last night)

No loss this morning. Ate about 630 calories today yesterday, since I added in some healthy fats and extra protein to see if I can jumpstart my overall stall. I fried my chicken breast up with a tbsp of coconut oil (covered in crushed melba toast-yummy!), and had 3 mac nuts for a snack, in addition to 1 oz of extra beef during lunch. Since I didn't have a reaction one way or another, not sure what to make of that. Will eat intuitively again today and see what happens. TOM is due today, but no symptoms, so not sure if he will be making his appearance. Since Im stopping this round immediately after TOM is gone, Im hoping he will show up soon...

Happy 3 day weekend everyone...I hope you have a great time!

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She who cannot be contained...

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The Pleasure Principle

Long time no write

R4P2D12-VLCD D10

R4P2D9- VLCD D7

Round 4! 1.5 Loss

Words from Anne Lamont (and me!)

Gentle she goes

Happy New Year!

Another week

Update

On the eve of my 39th yr

Advice Needed

R3P2VLCD D33- 137.4

Taking a step back

RP2VLCD D27: +.2

R3P2VLCD D26: +.2

R3P2 VLCD D25: -.6

No weight today

135!

R3P2D19: -2.2

R3P2VLCD D18: -2.2

R3P2D17: +3.8

R3P2D14: -1.5

R3P2 VLCD13: +.9

R3P2D12: -.2

EXPOSED again

R3P2D10: -1.1

R3P2VLCD D7: -1.8

R3VLCD D7- +.9

R3P2D8- VLCD 6- 3.5 loss

R3P2D7- VLCD D5- 0 loss

R3P2D6-VLCD D4- .2 loss

R3P2D3- VLCD D1

R3P2D2-Loading Day 2

R3P2D1- Loading at 144.8

R3 in two weeks!

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Race Results

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R2P4D71-Stressed and blessed

R2P4D68- Great weekend!

R2P4D62- 2.9 loss

R2P4D47-2.0 loss

R2P4D43- .2 loss

What a weekend!

R2P4D35- up 1.5

R2P4D33-SheRox

SheROX race results

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R2P4D30- .7 loss

R2P4D29- .2 above

Technical Difficulties

R2P4D23- .7 loss

Versatile Blogger Award

R2P4D21- .7 gain

R2P4D20- 1.1 loss

R2P4D19- I didnt weigh...

R2P4D16- .7 loss

R2P4D14- 0.0

R2P4D13- 2.4 loss

R2P4D12- .9 loss

R2P4D9- 1.1 loss

R2P4D8- 1.5 down

R2P4D7- 3.1 loss

R2P4D6- 9.3lb gain

R2P4D2- .8 gain

R2P4D1- 1.1 gain

R2P3D31- .6 loss

R2P3D29- 1.3 loss

Pic at 143 lbs

R2P3D26- .6 loss

R2P3D25- .7 loss

R2P3D24- .2 loss

R2P3D23- 1.1 loss

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